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2012 大年初一

2012-01-24T15:32:00.001+08:00

和去年一样，早上起床吃早饭后便向父母亲和二伯父拜年。接着爸爸妈妈便回"老家"，我和弟弟则窝在家里看电视睡午觉。

今年过得比较不一样。

我多准备了两盘斋菜，在家等候好姐妹登门拜年。

两位妈妈带了三个小瓜，让今年的聚会添了几分新鲜感。

孩子顽皮的玩闹声，娃娃的哭叫声，大人的谈话声和电视把我家客厅闹得热轰轰的。感觉真不错！

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Happy Chinese New Year 2012

2012-01-23T01:51:00.001+08:00

当男朋友把肉干和椪甘送来为我们家;爸爸妈妈喊我们把家里收拾干净，我这才感受到新年来咯！！！

今年过得特别平淡简单。

不过，只要阖家平安就好。

新的一年，顺顺利利！！！

平安健康，整整齐齐！！！

祝我的亲朋戚友，新年好啊！！！！！

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SII fever (part 2)

2012-01-16T08:03:00.000+08:00

I received my phone from Gdex as planned on 12 Jan. The phone came in good condition....

Finally, I have a bigger screen smart phone. Like it very much ^^,

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SII fever?

2012-01-09T23:43:00.001+08:00

I like my Samsung Galaxy 5, but its low internal phone storage and small display window can sometimes drive me crazy... If you want a smartphone, make sure the screen is big!!!!

Digi is having attractive internet package for smartphones until end of this month (kononnya). RM48 per month for 2 years, it's a saving of RM360 on my current internet plan. Moreover, the phone is about RM700 cheaper... I just can't help myself to think about it.

I admit that I'm not a patient person. It's abit frustrated when you purposely went to a place and asked a few outlets for the same thing, then the answer was always be out of stock and they don't know when will they have new stock...

Last Thursday, Digi Center said they would have stock within the week. I planned to go again on Friday, unfortunately I was given a last minute report at 5.30pm. My off time became 6.30pm... I would go to Berjaya Time Square if my phone still "alive".... Yea, I didn't charge my phone in office, and i didn't feel like going anywhere without a phone... So, I went home....

At 12 midnight, Samsung Galaxy SII white became available in online store. Though excited, I decided to try my luck again on the next day to see if i can get the phone immediately.

My instinct was right, it sold out again! Before noon, Digi Center was selling SII noble black . In noon, it was out of stock again.

The officer said the stock came in on Friday, 50 white 50 black. Whites were sold out on Friday..... WTH, I missed it!!!!! I guess, it is destined to be purchased online....

To me, a phone cost over RM1k is expensive.. Abit sakit hati..

But... if I calculate the cost like this: assuming I'm still paying RM63 monthly for the internet. The phone is just RM839...

Alright... It's a great deal!!!!

I'll receive my phone on Thursday.Let's see how It is...

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极端

2012-01-03T09:10:00.001+08:00

前几个月,一得空我就看书。
上下班的路上,饭后也躲在房里阅读。
一两个星期一本,电视不看,电脑也不开,一口气看了好几本书。
这两个星期,不知为什么不看书了。也许是因为弟弟把电脑带去宿舍两个星期,电脑一回来就觉得我要好好用它。
结果正事是没做上多少,连续剧是看了四套。每部连续剧有十六,七集左右;一集一小时多。我平均都用三四天看完……。
我知道自己对电视剧和电脑游戏抵抗力偏低,一发不可收拾。读书时是这样,现在还是老样子,也没想过改掉这老毛病…。偶尔如此放肆,感觉挺好的。
可这次病得很严重。通常连追两部,我就心满意足恢复正常生活。昨天为止,我还在煲……。
我在想自己除了贪还有什么,怎么看了两部好戏还不过瘾?是生活太沉闷了,还是在逃避些什么。
是呀,对于家庭起居等我很满意,可是除了家庭还有那重要的事已经让自己活得不怎么愉快了。
新的一年里,我过了两天颓废的日子,是应该振作了。如果2012是世界末日的话,我更应该过得积极一点。是不是?
希望发了这篇文章以后,两个星期前的我能活过来。重新出发!
比起煲连续剧,我比较喜欢极端地煲书。毕竟阅读会累,可以准时和周公约会。看戏…,娱乐效果虽好,可是越看越精神,看多伤身。
啊……,刘宝棋,快活过来吧!
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告别 2011

2012-01-01T00:24:00.000+08:00

只闻鞭炮声,却看不清楚远方的烟火。不用看时钟也知道2011过去了。下个星期要习惯把年份写成2012,也该调整心情在新的一年里继续奋斗!
2011过得不易,但总算平安健康地度过了。素质提高了些,两老的压力少了些,家庭和谐快乐平安感情好,身体健康..... 这一年所付出的都是值得的。
现在过得充实快乐,平凡就是福。心满意足
2012年加油!
我不怕苦最怕生活没挑战。
各位,新年快乐,健康平安。
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Merry Christmas 2011

2011-12-27T20:23:00.003+08:00

It is a festive season where gifts are exchanged, malls and offices are decorated, Christmas packages and promotions are introduced.

Christmas trees, Christmas songs, Christmas party, Christmas dinner etc... Yea, it's Christmas!!!

It's a day for gathering, appreciation and blessing. It's a day you look forward in December--- HOLIDAY.
Every year, i feel the same. In fact, I'm getting less excited. Holidays and Christmas gift from my boyfriend is all I'm looking forward in this occasion. Hmm, maybe also the Christmas dinner.

My company had Christmas dinner at Marche again. I like Marche and it is the most suitable restaurant for all races. However, the dinner was quite different this year. It ended earlier and all I remember was the main course I ordered.

Anyway, it was great to have fun with colleagues. I'm sorry for planning a game which was not really suitable for all ages... =(

All I was thinking of was to get everyone's attention in the game and laughter. It was great to have outgoing colleagues. Eventhough they hated the game, they tried their best to keep the ball rolling. I really appreciate that, thanks for your participation. Thanks to the HR personnel who planned this also.

We had gift exchange session in office and I got chocolate. One of my colleagues prepared a funny gift --A torch light. According to my colleague, he was planning to give one of the juniors in this company to show his concern as a senior. It meant the senior will take care of the junior. very meaningful right? Hahaha...

The Christmas Gift that I prepared. Cute anot?

My dear and I went to mall and cinema until 8 something in the evening on Christmas Eve. The mall was too crowded and we didn't plan to join the celebration. We are too old for count down in KL, and I hate mess. Ahhh, I had my last bowl of snowflakes on Christmas Eve. See you next year, snowflakes ^^,

Conclusion:
I had a peaceful December ^^,
Merry Christmas.
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绝不认输

2011-12-27T20:23:00.001+08:00

和男朋友说起韩剧,他的反应是:骗人的!
他指的是韩剧里的帅哥美女,那些让人陶醉着迷的爱情故事都是骗人的。痴情伟大的男人……世界上会有吗?

哈哈哈,当然没有!可是电影电视剧不都是为了满足人类幻想或梦想而存在吗?
生活沉默乏味,看戏是效果最快的生活调味料。最近不看书,每天都追戏看。

«绝不认输»由崔智友和尹尚贤主演。我是因为男主角才点击看这部戏的。我弟看到这两个人的时候便问:这个崔智友不是很老了吗?

哈,比起平时看的偶像剧,这两位主人公的确是老了点,可是这部戏的故事也很适合这两位"老人"。
故事说的是两位律师夫妇因为婚姻生活不如意,意见不和而闹离婚。在离婚和诉讼期间双方更了解对方,也领悟到夫妻要如何和平相处。然后大团圆结局。

故事平凡,平凡得很适合未婚和已婚男女参考。说的是大多数人家会有的故事,而最感人的是女主角的家庭故事。天下无不犯错的人,即使是父母也会做错事。误会和过错所带来的伤害的确很可恶,可是毕竟是一家人。世上有不能化解的事吗?

故事恰恰说中了这点,也是我很坚持的:不要有遗憾,就不要做自己会后悔的事。
就因为故事很有意思才想在这里分享一下。有时间不妨看看~

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Princess's Three Days Diary

2011-12-22T22:09:00.004+08:00

Friday night, 9/12/2011
I kissed my parents goodbye and wished them to have a great vacation with their friends in Hat Yai, Thailand. When both of them disappeared from the aisle, I declared myself a king, the person in charge of this house.... for 3 days!!!!!

Yea, thanks to my brother who was very busy with his assignment, had given me this golden opportunity to be independent! I imagined myself as a single lady living in a rented house alone and I gotta take care of my house, myself, my meals etc...Everything, Everyday!

Saturday, 10/12/2011
I spent my whole day shopping with my boyfriend in KL. I don't know how could we spend 8 hours shopping in Time Square and Pavilion! But we did it... =_=!

I bought a very cute notebook as a gift for my office Christmas gifts exchange session. I like notebooks in fancy design. Hope my colleague will like it too.

Sunday, 11/12/2011
I forced myself to wake up at 8.00am so I can buy some ingredients from wet market to prepare lunch and dinner.

It was not easy to do mummy's job, I realized that I only can tell the name when vegetable is served in plate, but not when it is still with its branches and green leaves. I felt so lost in that place.... and it took me about an hour time to buy the items (about 7 items only) listed in my "to buy list".

In the afternoon, my boy friend and I had home cooking noodles as lunch. It tasted good, really good! Though he complained I cooked too little soup.... FAIL =__=!

After lunch, My dear helped me to clean the ceiling fan (thanks ^^), and I... worked like a maid, did all cleaning in this 1k square feet apartment, every corner and furniture... Though exhausted, I'm happy and satisfied ^^,

Monday, 12/12/2011
It was Selangor state holiday, an off day for me ^^,
To me, holiday means I can sleep until 11 or 12. I hate my alarm clock which wakes me up every morning in dawn.

My best friend visited me with her hubby and their new born baby Jzay in the afternoon. Baby Jzay cried most of the time, hoping someone can carry him in arms until he fell asleep. Though I know I shouldn't pamper him too much, I just couldn't stop myself from holding him. He is soooooo lovely ^^ (Thanks yun coz accompany me the whole day)

In the evening, after saying goodbye to my friends, I hid in the kitchen and prepared dinner.

2 hours had gone, when my boyfriend arrived at my house, I already had prepared 2 dishes and a pot of soup. How was my performance? .... Boyfriend commented "alot"... Comments taken but I think I did a great job, nice dinner! Wasn't it? Hehe...

About 10pm, I heard my parents at the door. I opened the door:"Hallo! ^^" Wow, they bought things!!! Looked happy too.

Welcome home daddy, mummy. ^^
Thanks to my dear because accompany me these few days. XOXO

It's just my diary about these 3 special days, sorry coz it's quite boring. =p

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富爸爸穷爸爸, 再穷也要去旅行：女孩背包游世界, Brand Sense, Lost Angel, The Shadow of the Wind

2011-12-04T17:13:00.005+08:00

Since The Alchemist, I have been reading books. Glad to have a friend who shared me some great books:Rich Dad, Poor Dad by Robert Kiyosaki. It is a book that I wanted to read since my third year in University. I thought Business related books are boring, but not this book. When I passed this book back to my friend, i told him:" This book made me think alot of things, it's a very influential book!". Knowledge is your most powerful tools to be successful, your determination is everything that you need to get to your destination. Though, not all the points he mentioned is useful and practical to me, it's worth to learn. At least, it urges me to think and learn to get out from the rat race. Good book! (4/5 stars)

Travel around the world will always be my dream. I wish to bring my parents to see this beautiful world. This book is quite inspiring. Written by a Malaysian girl, seriously love to travel with her backpack. 《再穷也要去旅行：女孩背包游世界》, by 黄爱玲.
She traveled to Korea, Tibet, Europe etc... I wish to go these places~~~ Especially Korea and Europe countries. I like Korean food! OMG, i miss kimchi and seaweed! Though I do not really know Europe, I think i'd like to see their buildings and their free and easy life style. Backpack travel? Well, I guess I would not have the chance to take a few months leave for traveling. I wish i can work and travel at a foreign country, unfortunately it's not easy for me too. A week or two, maybe. Who wants to join me if one day I have this idea comes into my mind? No tour guide, but a map. No 3 stars hotel, but a backpackers hostel. No nice food, but bread or canned food. It's not easy, but i think should have tried this once in your life time. Get to know more people, and see the real world out there. Game?

Another great book that I have read this year. Brand Sense by Martin Lindstorm -- A very good book for marketers. I like the examples and the ideas in this book, i think i agree most of his points. Is there any companies want to build their brand like what Martin Lindstorm suggested? Please bring me in! I want to do that! This is why i like marketing!!! It's amazing ^^, (4.5/5 stars)

I told my brother that I wish he can borrow some books from the library since he entered TAR College to further his tertiary study. A year later, he finally brought me this book. After reading two non fiction books, I start to have less interest in reading fiction books. However, I appreciate it and glad that he remembers his promise. So, I put all other books aside, and read Lost Angel, by Kitty Neale^^,
I thought i need at least 2 to 3 weeks, but surprisingly I finished reading this in a week. I think i could not finish it if the story is not interesting. Not bad~ (3/5 stars)

I borrowed this book from my cousin in 2009, i guess. I started to read this book few months ago, but stopped reading it when my friends lend me some good books. It's thick, i used 3 to 4 weeks time to read this. Just few days ago, I stayed up until 3am just to finish the most excited chapters of this book. Oh My God... it's so nice!!!! I should have read this earlier. The author (or maybe the translator) is funny and I think i like the way he tells the story. The words are interesting and the story is mysterious and excited. I was so curious and eager to figure out the truth in this story. All I can say is, this books is really interesting and entertaining. Perhaps, it's the best fiction I have read in year 2011. Try it, it will not disappoint you.
--- The Shadow of the Wind (Spanish: La sombra del viento), by Spanish writer Carlos Ruiz Zafón. (4/5 points)

If you hates to read translated chinese names, please try the English version. I always got confused with the characters and road names mentioned in this book >.< anyway, you'll still get used it after reading a few chapters... ^^,

My Godson - C.J. (Chong Jzay)

2011-12-04T16:44:00.004+08:00

His name is Chong Jzay, i know him since he was 2 plus months old in his mum's body. He was so tiny when I first saw him in hospital -- he looked like a sushi (or California roll?)

He's cute and amazing~

Thanks to Liz who brought us to visit mummy on her labour day. She looked different but pretty~ It's beautiful to see her become a young mummy, a brave one who had gone through very tough moments to deliver her first baby. You did a really good job, dear!

Jzay -- grow up well.
Love you, muacks....~

Trip to Singapore

2011-12-04T15:38:00.007+08:00

Though it was a business trip, it was fun!
Glad to know you more Singapore. ^^,

1* If you go to Singapore Universal Studio, don't miss the in door and the most thrilling blue and red roller coaster. Except the in door roller coaster, I conquered my fear! I didn't even close my eyes and shout! Can you? Take the challenge!

2* I hate rain! We didn't have the chance to watch show. Missed the night safari animal show >.<

3* Singapore is clean and well organised. Can we plant more trees like what they do in Singapore? Too many concrete giant buildings, it's hot!!!! WE WANT MORE TREES!!!!! Solve global warming!!!!

4* See their MRT system! We need improvement, Malaysia!

5* Besides expensive, it's still expensive! If convert Ringgit to Singapore Dollars. Well, i didn't do much shopping.... Staying at Orchard Road area, what can i buy? I'm not really a "Brand" person. Anyway, i had fun shopping for souvenir, we got nice T-shirt at Bugis street!

6* I bough quite a lot of post cards, when i need to buy stamps.... it's not in out itinerary area >.< Sad.... Some more, the tour guide said: Nowadays, no people send post cards le..... SO? I'm still like to do old school stuff!!! You can't stop me! End up, bring home Singapore postcards and posted with Malaysia stamps. Friends, hope you don't mind ^^,

Fun & Tears at Redang

2011-12-04T14:42:00.002+08:00

My dear suggested a trip to Redang. I'm really glad that we can finally go for a TRIP together.

We bought a 3 days 2 nights promotion package in Laguna from myeho. I forgot how much was it, but it was slightly more expensive than some other hotels that we had shortlisted. With additional a few RM10s, why not?

After checking return air fare from Air Asia, we decided our trip to be on 11 to 13 September.

We travelled from PWTC on a nice coach (operated by Adik-beradik) at 10.30pm, arrived at about 5am. Kuala Terengganu bus station was quite "busy" in the morning. We had light breakfast at the canteen and waited van to pick us up to jetty at 7am.

Everything was well organized and we reached Laguna at about 11am (can't really remember the time).

Finally I saw Momocha inn, the beach and white sand! The water was so clear, big waves, blue sea, the sun.... Just nice! ^^,

Our room was not near by to any of the nice locations. It was near to Laguna jetty, far away from hotel lobby, swimming pool and beach. However, the room was better than Genting first world hotel. Spacious and clean ^^,

We joined total 3 snorkeling trips in 2 days. Marine park was the best! First time swimming closely with fishes, that was scary. But, the coaches said: "No bread, no fish. ". So, just do it lo! What a waste if you don't?

Snorkeling, snorkeling, snorkeling... I saw huge coral, really huge! Colorful and huge! Big sea cucumbers and shark. Ya, SHARK! i was alone swimming above a 1m long shark. Though it was harmless, I couldn't be in there alone! (Other people were snorkeling not far from me, but without buddies swimming close with me... Better don't swim alone!) Hence I swam back to the boat immediately... and meet my dear....

The trip was quite fun and relaxing, it could be perfect. Unfortunately I lost my digital camera on the beach... SAD =(

Haih... Luckily I still have a few pictures taken with my toy cam can cellphone... At least have something..

It was great to go for a vocation with my dear. When's the next? As you can read from the articles and movies, Redang is a beautiful island. Rich of underwater living and corals, water is clear, sand is white... I miss the beach where both of us were sitting. Soothing wind and nice benches... Yea, I miss it! Hope to visit beautiful island like this again... ^^,

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请照顾我妈妈; 申京淑著

2011-10-14T00:29:00.003+08:00

这是我是次书市的主角。
第一次认识它是在亚马逊文学书籍里的排行榜上。让人无法忽略的书名,及一大堆感动和广受推荐的数字吸引了我的眼球。读了故事大纲以后,感觉就像掉进爱河一样……非它莫属。

虽然它敌不过我家的床,要书市开跑了六天才去接它。但我对它可牵挂了整个星期喔!

作者的母亲失踪了许久都没消息。家里的人心急如焚,寻找妈妈这期间才发现妈妈其实早就在地铁站失踪前不见了。

每个人慢慢回忆起妈妈的点点滴滴,想起妈妈的厨艺,妈妈的毅力,妈妈的汗和泪,妈妈的好……。

我花了一天时间把整本书看完。很久没像这样对一本书那么爱不释手,夜里根本不想停下来。

这也是一本让我不停流泪的书。可能我真的很眼浅,我觉得自己好像由第一个单元眼湿湿到最后。

故事其实很普通,但作者把故事情节铺排得很漂亮。当你把这种很普通的故事和对话套在自己的生活里,其震撼力真的会让鼻子酸酸的。

虽然都是一行一行的文字,可是意义深重的字眼和句子都会挑起你的好奇心和你对母亲的思念,愧疚,觉悟等复杂情绪。读完以后,你更会发现你真的不小心把她弄丢在你繁忙的生活里了。

不但名人推荐这本书,连我也觉得不管男女老少都应该看这本书。

不管她在孩子面前如何地强大,妈妈毕竟还是个女人。我们长大了,妈妈老了。别错过任何机会让妈妈知道你多么地爱她。多多珍惜……。

"我成了妈妈的客人……。"印象最深的一句话~~~

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华文书市 2011

2011-10-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

终于等到今年的书市了!
因为错过了去年的盛会,今年特别关注是次书市的动向。

最近都忙于工作,鲜少注意好书好作品,只想在书市里捞些抵买的书。由于在上次的书市里带回来了两本让我感动不已的«三杯茶»和«最后一堂课»,希望同样地也能把感动带回家。

我把导览手册看了好几遍才在书市开跑的前一天把购书单整理好。长达九天的书市在开斋节期间举行,其实正是书虫刮宝的黄金时期。可是比起家里的床,我还是决定星期五放工后才赶去书市把宝贝带回家。

那天,谢谢他抱病陪我去书市,帮我拿书。虽然你几乎是坐在比较温暖的咖啡厅里等我,但我还是很喜欢你陪我。

好了,今年书市战绩如下:
1. 请照顾我妈妈
2. 蓝毛衣
3. Picture Perfect
4. Winner Stand Alone
5. The 1% Windfall
6. How To Become A Marketing Superstar
7. 本草纲目养生经
8. 一次完全读懂佛经

今年真的满载而归,要特别感谢弟弟最后一天把5和6带回来。

另外,友人在中国给我带回来«富爸爸,穷爸爸»,一本我想看很久的书。谢谢了!

这次的收获一定能看到明年!

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一一年七八月·@生日篇

2011-09-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

七八月，对我来说是个喜庆的月份。
每年的这两个月，我大概知道自己有哪几天是要预留给好友给他们和自己做生日。

十一日那天和朋友聚会以后，我就给在北方工作的你摇了通电话。
感谢那密探帮我拿到联络号码。
回家的路上尝试好几次都没接上，应该是国号不正确~
当接上的时候就好期待你会接电话，可恶没多久就断线了。
后来你打电话回来了：“宝棋啊！电话费会很贵呀！”
你不好意思要我花钱便自己打电话回来了，搞得我很不好意思~

我呀，六月时给你写了信可没寄出去。
那几张纸还在我的书架上，不知何年何月才会被我放进信封贴上邮票寄到你门前。
等着等着，你生日到了。
我什么都没给你准备，摇通电话给你应该还能把温馨送进你心里吧~
虽然你回来的那几天，我没出现；你生日当天也不见我的礼物，我衷心祝福你健康，快乐，平安。
你是让我觉得很感动，很温暖的朋友。
这份友谊真得很难得，我会珍惜的~
你真得要健康，快乐，平安哦！

我们提早在二一那天跟你庆祝生日。
有家庭的你周末都奉献给家人了，所以最近的聚会都选在周日晚上。
看你现在带着两个孩子，我其实为你感到骄傲和安慰。
回想几年前的你和现在的你，我很高兴看到你过得越来越好了。
完整就是幸福～
我们之中你跑得比我们快，走得比我们远。
看的东西比我们多，变得越来越稳重，感觉越来越踏实了。
有时候觉得自己真得跟不上你的脚步，怕对你越来越陌生，还真得很想知道你最近烦恼些什么。
生活上的琐碎事也好，心情矛盾事也好。
你告诉我说，年纪越大，很多事情都得靠自己的力量去解决。
即使有不开心的事说出来也于事无补。
我最近领悟到了，有些事儿还真的很烦心。
正因为烦连提也不想提，所以都没说。
你若需要肩膀的时候，不光是我，我们几个都会在你身边的。
或许帮不上什么，希望一对耳朵和肩膀能暂时让你舒缓一下心情。
二四正日，我一点儿消息也没有。
我记得你以前会撒娇说为什么没你的心什么的～
在此向你说声抱歉，别难过……
那天我在 Bukit Jalil 的停车场外和男朋友说：今天是嘉丽的生日呢～
我是记得的……。
（对了，你现在的中文名该怎么写呢？）

二日，我们几个人一起庆祝你我的生日。
最近办聚会都很累，交通地点都叫人很头疼。
很多时候都是你把我们叫出来，我们才会出现在彼此面前。
我们之中你的ＥＱ最高了，凡事都很有耐心也很花心思。
最让我感动也最让我不好意思的是每次都要你操心我聚会后怎么回家。
我们住的地方各在一方，为了我得从起点开车到西边再从西边开回东边去。
这么多年来，你一直都这样。
真的有说不完的感激。
当然我还是要感激另两个好姐妹，在我需要你们的时候都会在那里等我～
当天，你给我送来了一份好礼物。
有点儿贵重，因此而受宠若惊～
惭愧，我还是没准备些什么给你，但我祝福你健康，幸福，平安。
很感谢我另外两个好姐妹和你的好丈夫请我吃了顿很棒的晚餐 ^^
越写就越觉得自己很不要脸,光接受别人的礼物都没回礼.... 可恶!.......... >.<

今年的生日我过得的很平静……。
面子书上的生日显示关掉了也请了一天假。
本打算去做身体和牙科检查，可是难得可以睡到自然醒，我便在家宅了一天。
看戏，吃，睡～
对了,今年过的特别些, 因为有男朋友在身边,还一起吃韩国餐。
以前我很喜欢庆祝生日，因为那天能感受到很多人的关怀。
自小父母亲不会为我特别办生日派对，生日都是一家人过的。
所以朋友和同学为我庆生，我真得很开心。
我记得中学的时候，班上的同学为我庆生。
太多的关怀和温馨真得让人感动～
后来发现太多的关怀和注意力让自己有点措手不及的感觉，我开始想要过得平静些。
我很幸运，身边有很棒的人。
在生日的两个月前，你托人把礼物和祝福送过来了。
你们知道我的生日快到了，相约去大嘴巴闹了一个晚上。
那天很开心，离开ＡＡ几个月的你们出现了 ^^
九日，在公司里忙了一整天，似乎也忘了第二天是自己的生日。
当天也是我和同事们的运动日，在泳池里游着游着突然想起：今天过得很平静，不错～
运动后我们几个人一起用餐。
你们几个神情怪怪的,没多久就一块蛋糕几根蜡烛。
感觉刚刚好~
不需要太多人,适量的关注和关心很不措。
感谢各位的用心 ^^

八月

2011-09-04T21:59:00.005+08:00

除了生日，这月里发生了什么事吗？
特别事？
这个月感觉特别累。
已经很努力在周末里放松心情了，什么也不去想，尽可能不想些烦心的事~
可是还是觉得心情很沉重~

浑浑噩噩地又过了一个月，领了一个月的工资。
最近有太多不如意和难以接受的事一直在挑战我的忍耐力。
一想到那些烦心的事还真的会泄气。
一早起来充满能量来面对新挑战，不到半天电池被消耗了一半。
然后下班……。
尽管有许多的无奈，我还是想起了那句话：打工罢了，看开点~

这个月，弟弟在家很热闹，感觉很踏实。
他这次完成了证书课程，接下来便修Diploma。
下个学期将会申请到贷款，我们也可暂时松一松口气。
这一年多以来觉得弟弟真的长大了不少，可靠了许多。
功课方面很积极，很用心~
你要继续努力哦！
爸爸妈妈看你现在比以前积极了那么多都感到很安慰~
不过你真的有一点做得不够好。
你一人在外家人都会担心你牵挂你，你可不可以给妈妈发一封短讯，给爸爸摇通电话关心问候一下？
最重要的是电话要记得充电，千万别让我们联络不上你。
你老姐最怕就是联络不到你，你要改一改！！！！
别让我们担心~
离开学的日子大概还有一个星期，真得有点不舍得弟弟回去呢~

八月尾是开斋节和独立日。
今年的佳节怎么那么没气氛？

对了，那天和男朋友以及中学朋友在G Tower 的 View Rooftop Bar 聚会。
这家伙是第一次带我去酒吧！哈哈，还让我喝了一杯很大很大杯的Hoegaarden！！！
爽！！！

朋友，打个招呼吧！

2011-09-04T03:11:00.005+08:00

刚写完一篇文章又开始另一篇了。
改不了老毛病，每每心血来潮想要把今天的感受记录下来的时候都会因为今天以前还没记载的事打住。
之前那篇文章正是几个月以来的心情故事，现在这篇是在写着“八月”时衍生出来的感慨。

我记性不是很好，或许太依赖电脑都不太记得一些朋友的生日。
很多人认为不记得朋友的生日真得太没心肝了，是的，是很没朋友的心。
可就是不知为什么，就算记得今天是谁的生日都没劲儿上线在别人的墙上留下祝福，就连发个简讯都没有。
有时候即使在线上也不会留下任何痕迹。
像断线的风筝一样。
你可以说我真得很没心肝，可当我想起今天是你的生日时，我还是衷心祝福你快乐，平安健康。
即使你听不到，感受不到～

或许我只关心自己的事，真得没心情塑造些什么。　
或许我很想把自己变得很小，让你不记得我的存在。
因为对你而言，我门就只是旧同学，战友，室友，同事，师生，老同伴。
除了过去的时光，我们现在没一起拥有过什么。
就只是纯粹的问候和表面的分享～
我没努力过，所以也不会在这一天献殷情。
即使没有我的出现，你仍然会过得很好～
可是偶尔我还是会突然登门问候，因为真的想知道你最近如何了。

许久没来往的你突然问候我，我真得很开心。
因为我还没在你的记忆里消失。
即使这些日子我没努力经营你我的友情，你还记得我。
真是万分的感激和感动。

感情需要经营，不光是爱情而以，友情也一样～
我发现我不太会经营友情。
我时常都会觉得很疲惫，每一天的时间分成三部分：工作，亲人，自己～
朋友的时间就放进了“偶尔的聚会“里。
因为了解很多事情都得靠自己的力量去解决，和朋友的话题越来越少。
每每话题围绕着最近自己发生什么了，已经没像以前那样没完没了。

有些朋友和他们在一起就是觉得快乐，所以会抽一些时间在他们的身边，希望这样可以让自己一直快乐～
有些朋友就是因为要呵护曾经拥有的回忆，所以会突然拨个电话，写封信，寄张卡，在面子书墙上留言问候或祝福～
有些朋友就是要一起经历，分享和感受，在他们身边你会觉得自己并不孤单，彼此需要对方的时候，他就在那方准备为你分担。
只是这种朋友不多，就那几个～
几个就够了～

朋友对我来说还是很重要，因为当你真的需要意见和关怀的时候，他们是你的避风港之一。
有缘让我认识你，我记得你，不管你我是怎样的朋友，我一样在乎。
我不愿失去些什么，除非真的没必要保持。

是的，今天有了这样的觉悟。
身为朋友的我，不够努力～
我希望你记得我，我想你也和我一样不想被遗忘。
我也是时候出现在你眼前问候问候了，希望我还能保留你这个朋友。

朋友，若你记得我，当我经过你眼前的时候，给我打个招呼吧！

谁料到“八月”的文章还没写完，我就一口气写完这篇“朋友，打个招呼吧！”。
坐在电脑前许久了，我还没开始今天的主菜。
凌晨三时三十分～
今天又熬夜了，可恶的“心血来潮“总发生在夜里该上床会周公的时候……。

出发点在哪？

2011-09-04T00:18:00.003+08:00

瞧我已经一个月半没拜访老家了。
就连友人在一个月半前给我留言，我还是现在才反应。
其实不是不想“回家”，心里有太多事想分享了。
几个星期前我就在自己的手机里开始写八月的心情文章，手指滑出了好几行字就停止了。
我不知道从何说起～
即使在喜庆的八月里，心情一直都不是很好。
有些事挂在嘴边一段时间了，并不是我不积极，而是我还不知道方向。
这一次我真得想要找个好去处，好好成长。
好友跟我说很多事不用想太多，不然就会有太多牵绊了。
我很感恩身边出现了很棒的人，听了许多的鼓励也得到了一些让人感到安慰的认同。
在他们的眼中我是那样的人，可我怎么就觉得自己真得很脆弱渺小。
世界太大了，这个社会太复杂了，我觉得自己和两年前的自己没两样～
比这里更复杂和富有挑战的社会容得下我吗？
我的要求已经不像两年前那样单纯了，我真得可以找到那个容得下我的地方吗？
开始发现我当初那个什么都不怕，敢死队精神和信心渐渐地被消磨掉了。
也因为意识到这一点，我也和自己说“我要改变！”
可我像迷路的羔羊，该往哪里出发才好呢？
我给自己的期限已到了，是重新开始的时候。

我一直相信，常保持好心境，努力做好本分，凡事要乐观和带上平常心，老天爷不会亏待于你。
像我最近看的一本书 The Alchemist 里一直重复的信念：when you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true．
生活中的每时每刻都在教导和提示你些什么，你若把握到那分提示你就知道接下来的路该怎么走了。
这些日子里，已经出现了很明确的提示。
我已经知道自己要做什么了，现在只是一直在收集着散乱的提示让自己更能清楚地知道该怎么做。
或许我在为自己找借口，或许我安于舒适区不想改变。
可是我相信不会太久～

The Juggler (preface story -The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho)

2011-07-26T20:15:00.003+08:00

Read an interesting preface story in The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho.

"Our lady, with the Baby Jesus in her arms, decided to come down to Earth and visit a monastery. The monks proudly joined in a long queue, and each of them came before the Virgin to render their homage.

The last monk of all there was the humblest in the whole monastery, who had never studied the learned books of the time. His parents were simple people, who worked in an old traveling circus, and all they had taught him was to throw balls into the air and juggle with them.

When it was his turn, the other members of the order wanted to bring the homage to a conclusion, since the old juggler would have nothing important to say, and might lower the image of the monastery. But in the bottom of his heart, he also felt a burning need to give something of himself to Jesus and the Virgin.

Ashamed, conscious of the disapproving looks of his brothers, he took a few oranges from his bag, and started to juggle them in the air, saying that juggling was all he knew how to do.

It was at that moment that the Baby Jesus, sitting on Our Lady's lap, smiled and started to clap his hands. And the Virgin reached out her arms, inviting him to hold the baby."

Good starter ^^,

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对自己好一点

2011-07-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

世上没有丑女人,只有懒女人。
我承认我很懒,真的说出来都不好意思!

有少许倾向工作狂的我,周末除了和男朋友去看戏,偶尔和老朋友聚会,大多时间都想呆在家。我看我已经成为宅女了!

工作后,还以为自己可以摆脱学生妹时期的穷境,挣钱了可以对自己好一点。谁知工作后虽然挣了小钱,可面对生活,账单,家人等等,小钱变得更小了。有时还真的不太敢花钱…。

我喜欢衣服,鞋子,包包。可是往往到了商店后,购物欲望都会因为价标上的数字而减低。好的东西贵,便宜的东西差。有些东西连品质都没有就标上和某品牌一样的价钱。

男朋友叫我存点钱,工作后我一直都有储蓄。只是总数像股票那样上上下下。看起来花费很大,可是看看自己依然故我…。

我相信先苦后甜,再多几年一定能熬过去的! 二十年来我们都是这样…。

虽然如此,我还是要对自己好一点,别让自己看起来很邋遢。就算累也得花点心思在自己身上,花点钱来奖励自己…。

这个星期决定要去理发和上美容院,已经好久没拜访了!

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Nightmare - Jam

2011-07-06T10:04:00.003+08:00

Darrrrrrr.....
I really wanna say dirty word.
What the hell!
I really hate you, set ROAD BLOCK at this hour?

What you want to check?
Jam from cheras batu 11 to serdang.

I'm really pissed off!
I really hate you!!
Are you helping?
From what I see, you are creating problems, make people angry only!!

Tell me, why setting up ROAD BLOCK at peak hour?
You should write to my company why I'm late today.
2 hours in jam!!!
I normally spend 15 minutes, you made me trapped in this unnecessary jam for 2 hours.
Shit!!!

I really don't know why we need you.
I really hate paying tax for your perks, for this country!!!

Damn it!
You made me like Oh Ba Sang now... Shit!!!!

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向日葵

2011-07-05T17:17:00.004+08:00

我喜欢向日葵!
喜欢它白天时像条龙,晚上像条虫。
太阳走到哪,它就跟到哪。
我喜欢它黄色的花瓣,让人感觉很有活力。
它就像个傻大姐,比其他花儿大,比其他花儿高。懵懂地的看着太阳发呆~
真的好想站在向日葵花海中和它背靠背地站着。看看我这真人版的傻大姐是否和它一样那么耀眼。
今天看了一篇文章,人类的区分不再限于部落或国家,现是以人类性格与行事特征区分一个人。今天课题讨论的是向日葵族!

顾名思义,这族群就像向日葵。给点阳光就灿烂,珍惜蕴藏在平淡里的幸福,知足常乐,积极乐观......。

看完向日葵族19个特征,我想我知道我属于哪个族群了!

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Taxi Haggling

2011-07-02T17:01:00.001+08:00

What do we do if a taxi driver haggle?
Do you report to related party?
Do you argue with the taxi driver?
Thanks to our government and related parties for not doing work well.. Ooops, sorry, typo error.
Thanks to our government and related parties for not being transparent in their works. We do not know are there any actions be taken when there are reports of taxi haggling.
I hate haggling!
Place where I stay is not common with and low demand on taxi. Most of the taxi drivers do not use taxi fare calculator, they offer a price and you bargain.
I have no choice as there's only one or two busses will pass by every 20 minutes, sometimes 30. Our destinations are not really far away, we rather spend some money than waiting a bus. Hence, the taxi drivers are always the winners.
I like hiring taxi in PJ.
Unlike my place, that you do not need to worry there are no taxi passing by. I always can catch a taxi easily. Best thing is, they do not haggle!
Yesterday, I a bit pissed off when the taxi driver said he wanted to charge me RM 4 for a 10 minutes walking distance. I'm unhappy not because of the tiny few cents he overcharged me, but he was not using the calculator and argued with me.
He said Friday is jam, not overcharging you. I know RM4 is not much, I paid RM6 for only RM3 journey before. What is RM4 to me? I was just not happy there's taxi haggling in PJ.
May be I was not in good mood, and the taxi driver was unlucky got me as his passenger.
I've never complaint about this, this was my first time. Ya, I guess he was unlucky!
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24 hours, 12 months, 365 days and 75 years.

2011-06-28T08:40:00.004+08:00

It's almost 1/2 of the day we spent our time outside; working, traveling.
1/2 of the day we stay at home:
1/4 of the day for ourselves, friends and family.
1/4 of the day sleeping on bed.

I'm 25, seems like I have plenty of 24 hours, 30 days and 12 months.

Do the maths, how much time we can spend for ourselves, friends and family.
How much time do your parents have?

It seems like I'm a workaholic that sometimes I still show up in emails on weekends or while I'm on leave.

In fact, I'm not a workaholic.
I just worry too much.
With deadlines, I can't free my minds.
I'll be working on weekends only if needed.

I respect workaholic or people who spent 75% of their time for work. Some giving their best in their work, 110% committed. Even work at sleeping hours...

I'm not saying they are wrong.
Nothing is right or wrong, we are just having different perception, belief, etc.

Life is about give and take.
For me, career helps us to be a better person, giving us satisfaction, income, recognition etc. Instead of committing 110% in work, I wish I have at least 50% of this effort for myself, parents and my family.

We have goals.
We want to achieve something, be outstanding in work.
Even I want to be rich, I wouldn't equal $ to happiness.
There are a lot of things money can not buy.

I don't want to be blind, where the only thing I can see in this world is $.
I know many people are working hard to give the best thing to their parents or kids.
I know it is human's nature that we always want the best thing in our life. We expect improvements.
We work hard because we want this for our beloved ones.

I think our parents and kids need our attention more than our boss. Understand that you gotta work hard for a better future, understand that you have no choice but to give the best in your work until success.
There will be always a reason...

You can commit 110% in work for $ which can realize your dreams, fulfill your needs and demand etc. How about 110% as a son, a daughter?

Sometimes, the simplest thing parents expect from us is not $. They want us to live better, they know only $ can do this. They'll not ask special attention for themselves. They'll not disturb you, but they'll be sad if you are being troubled with works.

They wish they can help.
As a parent, they wish they can protect you from everything.
But, we wouldn't let them.
Thinking that we've grown up, capable in everything. No longer need to be worried or be taken care of.
It's true, I don't deny it.
But, if there's a moment you need your parents.
Be a son or a daughter.
Even if they can't help, they wish they'll be there for you.
Speak with them, share with them.

We know, we shouldn't make our parents worry for us. Then, avoid it.

Don't get me wrong.
I'm not saying avoid telling it to your parents.
I'm saying things that you do.
Avoid doing things that will make people worry about you.

Above mentioned may not be true or applicable to you. As I mentioned, everyone is different. Nothing is right or wrong.

It's just my little thought.
If you're good in maths. Let's do some calculations. How old are your parents? How many minutes you spend with them everyday or every month? How long they can be with you?

What's important to you? For me, family is my everything. I wish I can do better.
Still, I have a lot to learn.

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机械人@生活update - Bateri Ciplak

2011-06-25T13:35:00.002+08:00

Just three weeks ago, I applied a day leave.
Three weeks later, I wish to have another day leave.

It's really good to take a day leave,
away from office, work, emails, problems and endless last minute requests.

I'm tired.
I used to be energetic like Energizer.
Now, I'm like a cheap brand battery.

I wish to stay at home after work and sleep right after dinner.
I no longer addicted to watch drama til late night.
I no longer can read a book after shower.
It's like a miracle for me to say good night before my boy friend.
He had spent few years to persuade me sleep earlier before I created this miracle. I was too stubborn and playful.

We have too limited time at home. Personal time is so short, how could I sleep early?

Can I say we are getting older at 25. I feel myself getting weaker...
Maybe I only exercise once a week, it's truly not enough to build a stronger me.

I do plan, in future....
If I have a car, I want to sign up a yoga class and other dancing class which I like.
Go swimming and play badminton once a week.
It should be enough.
It may be helpful to upgrade this ciplak battery back to Energizer.

I wish I can make it next year.
Anyone want to join me?
Gotta start taking care of ourselves.

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Cough

2011-06-21T19:11:00.002+08:00

I hate sorethroat, cause I will cough really badly after that.

I had just recovered from coughing few weeks ago, now it's back!!!

Please go away...
I was so proud that I seldom get sick, but I visited clinic three times within 5 weeks.

Sorethroat, cough and cough...
Seriously, it'll kill me!
I cough till hurt my throat and sometimes I feel it's too much for my lung. Seems like I will cough out my whole lung from my mouth....

Yish... Go away, go away...

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Bomb Scare

2011-06-07T00:02:00.005+08:00

I've never thought I will experience this, even living in the world with daily / weekly / monthly bomb scare news. Moreover, in Jaya 33 building.

I think my story of this bomb scare started at 2pm something when I went to post office with my colleague. We were surprise that there were a lot of people gathering in front of the lobby. We thought there must be some sort of promotions or activities, or someone very important was paying visit to Jaya 33. Whatever, everything seemed to be normal inside the building, we went back to our office and continue our work.

Suddenly, one of my colleagues came into office and said it out loud: Hey, office ada bomb, ada police kat luar....

At first, no one was actually paying attention to what he said. He was so kind repeat the sentence and emphasize that he was telling the truth! Someone suggested making calls to building management, others were then responded to his news.

"Really?"
"Seriously, don't play play!!!"
"Ha? Wanna off anot?"

Less than a minute, we heard announcement from the building PA system. GOD, it's true!! At that time, I was answering a call from our DAPC member. I replied nicely:" Sorry miss, currently we have an announcement from building security, would you call back later?"

Thank god to that announcement and the bomb scare alert, I don't need to answer this call (recently these calls are nightmares to us, we know it's our problem, we really hope we can help you!!). She was nice and said ok, but obviously she was surprise to hear me responded in such way.

It's death and life, sorry that I can't answer your questions now, i gotta RUN!!!!

OK, seems like we were panic. In fact, we managed to grab everything important to us and leave the building. At first, we wonder wanna use staircase anot, but end up we all squeezed in an elevator. Though it's a scary news, all of us still making jokes inside the elevator. (Yea, we know, we should use the staircase... but human nature >.<)

Some of my colleagues very brave, stopped at parking levels and left with their cars. Others like us, without knowing what to do next chose to stay in MCD which is located opposite to our office building.

Few of us were quite early and managed to get a table at the window, busy snapping photos, upload in Facebook, Twitter, chatting or texting on the phone with friends. In that moment, I realised how awesome to have a smartphone in hand....

Sitting there, watching polices do their job (in fact, we actually don't know what were they doing, they were just standing there, walked here and there... maybe waiting updates from specialists.)

How should I describe the scene?
A few police cars were parked in front of Jaya 33.
People were standing at the road side. Some of them still wearing their uniform... looking bored...
MCD was full of people, queue at the counters were long and their staffs were busy selling ice cream or drinks.
It was jam, cars were moving slow.
Everyone was talking about how their friends or family responded, how they feel about this incident.

About an hour later, i guess.
My friends and I decided to go home.
YEAH~ So early huh?
=_=! Terpaksa, what to do? We heard it's raining, better make a move before it's too late!!!!

Thanks to internet, we can always get the latest updates.
Around 6 something, I got updates from my friend in Facebook.

"FALSE ALERT"

DARRRR, another irresponsible fellow~~
However, we shouldn't take it as granted. Though possibility of having a bomb in a building like Jaya 33 is LOW, we should take it seriously. Evacuate in the right way and be give our hands to people who need our help whenever we can.

Yea, use staircase in case there's any emergency like this! FORGET the ELEVATOR!!!!!!

Short Trip to Bukit Tinggi

2011-06-05T09:04:00.006+08:00

This was another outing with my best friends after the PD trip in March, also my first time visiting Bukit Tinggi with my dear.

The French style buildings are nice, I like the Japanese Tea Garden, but I didn't really pay attention to the plants and grass. Maybe there were other visitors in the garden, we hardly could find a place for pictures or stopped by to enjoy the scene.

Yea, the place is lack of points of interest and boring, but it was okay for me. Though I'm quite disappointed with the place, glad to spend time with my friends and my dear.

Will I consider a second visit to Bukit Tinggi?

Sad to say: Nope, unless Berjaya improve the place with more points of interest and activities.

RM 12 per adult is not worth, moreover it's not included admission to rabbit park. Coca-cola is extremely expensive! RM 7 per can, I think it's more expensive than Genting!

Two pairs of swans were the best thing in Bukit Tinggi. Perhaps, my expectation was too high...

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Who are we to attend this wedding dinner?

2011-05-22T23:00:00.006+08:00

He delivered the invitation card with his dad to our house that Saturday.

He, I call him as cousin.
Due to some indescribable reasons, we didn't speak to each other for years since I was in standard one.

I still remember he broke the ice between us when I was in first year of form six. He asked abruptly: "you study form six also?"

I thought we'll be fine. Unfortunately, things keep changing but not people. When I was in UKM, he seems like a stranger to me.

I don't even recognize the lady, whom I should call aunt or his two younger brothers.

I'm drown with disappointment. I always be positive in many things, family will always be first. For him, I'm done.

All I know and remember about this family is my uncle, whom I still respect and love.

As a family, we attended the wedding dinner. I shouldn't feel annoying but I can't accept this!

If you see us as family, you should take it seriously. After this dinner, all I feel is, who are we to attend this wedding dinner?

Aside the morning ceremony that you didn't mentioned a word to us, I'm totally fine with this. After all, I'm not the one to complain. My parents are fine, why shouldn't i?

Things I can't accept was the two younger cousins, came to our table a few times, chatting with other guesses but totally have no idea that his father's sister was sitting there. For them, we are like nobody. Who are we, they don't know. Maybe, they know.... whatever.....

The funniest thing was, a uncle asked me:" the two gentlemen are your cousins (elder), you know?."

I smiled and corrected:"younger cousins!"

I'm abit frustrated. I know who they are, but they don't. Shouldn't you explain to them? Ah, please remind them, my mom is their father's sister, they should greet her!

Perhaps I'm abit drunk, I'm glad that you still remember us are still your family (not your brothers). I'm glad we still can be there for your dad, happy for him.

It's just too complicated, between us.

I know, I'm abit drunk.
I know, you'll never know how we feel.
I know, you wouldn't care.
But still, I wouldn't blame you.

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I Like Everything with Stamps

2011-05-19T00:43:00.004+08:00

Not sure when did I start to collect postcards. Though my collections are very limited, I love everything with stamps!

I had a stamp album with stamps from various countries. Ya, I said I "had" a stamp album. Now, I don't know where's my stamp album.

Honestly, I started to collect stamps because lessons or hobby examples in text books. Textbook teaches us the advantages of collecting stamps. Well, I collected stamps from Malaysia, England,USA, India etc, but I don't feel like getting to know more about the countries. I admit that I'm a lazy person, I wouldn't search info during my primary school time, I didn't even know what www. or google is. So, I stopped buying stamps.

Ya, I bought them instead of exchanging with friends. Not many of my friends collect stamps. Perhaps, I should say NONE OF THEM at that time.

Surprisingly, I made a friend recently and he collect stamps. I thought this is a "dying hobby"at our age >.< Well, I'm glad we have things to share.

Now, I collect special stamps of Malaysia and postcards with stamps. Postcard is my favorite!

I send postcard to myself and close friends when I travel to overseas. For me, it's the best souvenir.
It tells you some stories of the country or town.
It brings sender's best wishes.
It was sent by air with local post office stamps and local stamp.
It brings you surprise when you found it in your mail box unexpectedly.

So far, I sent postcards from Thailand and Shanghai. It's not much, but I'll keep card numbers increase. I hope you, who received postcards from me will like it too ^^,

Besides sending postcards from other countries, I do purposely buy some postcards, paste local stamps on it and ask post officer to "chop" for me. Instead of collecting one card and one stamp from the country, why not buy all the stamps in the country and paste on local postcards. It can be a souvenir for yourself and also your friends.

Also, this is the safest way to ensure you'll have the postcards with local and post office stamps. This reminded me of my lost cards which i sent from Phuket. My friends received it, but not me. I was expecting to receive my postcards everyday, til now still no news at all~

Hmm, before I ended my post today. I would like to say thanks to my dear friends who sent or give me letters, cards, postcards etc. I treasure it a lot. Muacks... ^^,

Would you like to receive some postcards from me? Give me your mailing address, I'll try to drop you one next time ^^,

PS: If you travel out from KL / Malaysia and don't know what to buy for me. You may send me a postcard. I definitely will love it ^^ (Not applicable for special person!!! HAHAHA...)

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四月

2011-05-15T23:45:00.008+08:00

最近的post真的非常乏味~
一，没心情
二，没时间
三，没灵感
四，词穷

这个月，我又要以月份为题。
不同的是，我不想多说什么。
只是想把上个月发生的事记录一下，婆妈的故事以后再补上（如果有心情的话~）

四月初，和男朋友出席朋友的“喜庆”聚餐。^^, 赞！

也是四月初，家人一年一度的聚会：扫墓。
好久没跟去扫墓了，今年的天气不太热，还下雨呢！

四月中，和公司的朋友去了趟马六甲。
十四个人从早上吃/走到晚上~
不赖的旅程。

四月尾，公司又一友人离职。
祝她工作顺利，保持联络哦！

精彩的三月

2011-04-08T19:24:00.002+08:00

今年的三月最特别。除了忙于工作,还忙放假和吃喝玩乐。

终于用完去年累计的年假!平均每星期放假一天半,害朋友羡慕得很呢~

除此之外,好朋友也选在今年的妇女节和爱人注册。虽然消息很突然,但还是很欣慰可以在场为她打气。

好久没和好姐妹出游了,大家讨论了许久,从东海岸说到泰国,从九月说到三月。好不容易才决定好月中去PD Avillion住一晚。

出发前一天,日本发生了近9级大地震引发了海啸。虽然日本离我们很远,PD也位于半岛西海岸,日本海啸不会造成威胁,可是比我们年长的老人家就是不放心媳妇和孙子到海边去。结果本来六人游就这样变成了四人游。

虽然少了两位漂亮的主角,可我们三姐妹还是玩得很开心。除了那顿不好吃而价钱超高的晚餐。

这三月,我们欢送了三位同事。去了两次卡拉Ok也吃了好几顿饭(上下午餐甚至还有甜品)。虽然对他们的离开有些不舍,但也希望他们以后的发展会更好。

很快的,三月过去了。又得为四月的自己好好加油。Fighting!

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2011 Chinese New Year

2011-04-06T22:52:00.004+08:00

Sorry, sorry.... It's Ah ma's story time again....
Now is April, should be Qingming festival loooh!!!
Please forgive me, i just can't skip blogging my story which is meaningful to me.

New Year shopping!!!! see baba mama, so happy ^^

First day of Chinese New Year. All dress up nicely. Where to go? Hehe, parents went back to "hometown", brother and I stayed at home. Why so bad girl and bad boy? Why not going back kampung? HAHAHA, if you know me well, you should know where is this "kampung".

From the pictures below, you should know how old are my parents and my brother ^^
These statues have been in Thean Hou Gong for YEARS. Since primary school? Or more? hmm... I still have photos taken with these statues during my primary school time.
HAHA, share with you next time, see how young and cute was my brother, and of cause ME~~ hehe...

I don't know why they built a China Pavillion in Thean Hou Gong, maybe it represented Chinese. Well, it was a stage. Maybe it was 2011 theme... Errrr.... For me, I think RABBIT should be the theme this year.

As mentioned above, first day I spent my day at home watching TV. Ahhh... I was so excited to wait for the Malaysian movie that night, 媒人帮. It was funny and nice. Though the story line was predictable, the artists and their conversation were my favourite ^^

Second day, I visited my boyfriend's house. Shame to say, this was my X time visiting his house. I felt a bit nervous meeting his mother, anyway it was great ^^ I thought my relatives will visit us on the second day of new year, but they didn't. He was so lucky again~~ hehe...

Third day, I canceled my dinner plan with my best friends because need to have dinner with my relatives. I can't miss any moment with them!!! Gathering or dinner like this make me feel happy and warm.

Forth and fifth day, I went back to "kampung" with my family. Spent my time sleeping in hotel and window shopping. Ah... I had dinner with my secondary schoolmates on 7th February. Long time no see ^^

I think I didn't do anything special until Saturday, 9th day of Chinese New Year. I had a nice steamboat dinner with my best best friends. We should always have dinner together, don't always wait til SPECIAL OCCASION, because next appointment will mostly be next quarter or next year!!! hehe~~ Thanks for coming.

Oh ya, due to I carried forward 15 annual leaves from year 2010 and it should be used by end of March, I applied 5.5 day leaves since Chinese New Year Eve. HAHAHAHA, what a long holiday. I think this could only happen once in my life time... In future, it is very unlikely to have long holiday like this. Right?

Well, on 15th day of Chinese New Year. I did nothing... no celebration but feel down to say bye bye to Chinese New Year. It's time to keep the celebration mood and start working hard for this year. It would be another good good year ^^

Though it's late, I'd to say. Happy New Year.

=___=!

2011 New Year's Resolution

2011-03-24T20:07:00.002+08:00

I know, I know.
Now is March, and it's quite weird to talk about New Year Resolution. I just felt too lazy and moody to update my blog, that's why I delay this resolution post.

Last year was a great year for me, I'm satisfied and happy for what I had experienced and learnt. This year, I hope it'll be as nice as or better than last year. I have my 2011 new year's resolutions as such:

1. Save $ every month, get ready to own a vehicle next year.

2. Sleep at 11pm if possible, must sleep for at least 6 hours per day.

3. Drink at least 2 litres of water per day.

4. Pay more attention to hair care and skin care products. Pamper myself with masks, at least twice a week.

5. Personal and family health maintenance. Take health supplements regularly. Don't skip.

6. Improve cooking and house chores skills. Cook family dinner at least once a month, be captain of the kitchen after everyday dinner!

7. More exercises. Say good bye to little tummy! Badminton and swimming.

8. Work like a marketer, a thinker. Be calm, rational, sensitive and steady. Better than yesterday!

9. LOVE shopping. Buy all items listed in the "to buy list"

10. Pray and be nice. Control my hot hot temper, be soft and patient. Be tough enough to face difficulties, be confident to make decisions.

This will be another good good year! Wish the same to you ^^

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2010

2011-03-23T23:21:00.005+08:00

2010 was a great year for me. I learnt a lot of new things, made some good friends, first time traveled out from Malaysia with family, joined company incentive trip to Shang Hai etc.

In March, I had my first oversea trip in 2010 to Phuket with colleagues. It was really a nice and relaxing trip. Moreover, you got to know your colleagues better.

Also, company group activity - Skytrek Adventure at Bukit Cahaya and dinner at Port Klang. It was an exhausted day trip, we ended the day with a few glasses of wine at Jaya One in smelly T-shirts and pants =__=!

Then, another trip to PD with 3 other colleagues. It's quite good as we had a local friend brought us around PD for good food. Lunch and dinner was great ^^
Ah, I love durians there!

In April, there was announcement of salary adjustment. I didn't receive any adjustment letters or emails. It's acceptable for me as I just passed my 6 months probation period. Some of us happy, some not. From this, we almost had farewell party every month until end of year 2010.

The World Expo 2010 in Shanghai from May until October was a hot topic in my office and also among my cousin and his friends. Initially, i planned to go with my cousin in October. I felt really lucky and happy that I got the chance to join our company incentive trip. Though it's a working / business trip with customers, the trip gave me a chance to see Shanghai - The first place I visited in China.

The money which I had budgeted for Shanghai Trip was used for my family trip to Phuket in September. Oops, did I mention this was my second time visiting Phuket within a year? Except Singapore, this was our first time travel oversea together. Moreover, it's my mum's first time sitting in the flying machine - Airplane. She was very excited and claimed that her dream has finally came true. T___T. Mummy, i promise, I'll bring you fly to other country next year! Also, special thanks to my cousins and my aunt. ^^

October, one of my best friends has finally tied the knot with her boyfriend. As predicted, she's the second person among five of us got married. Love you mun ^^

November, I applied 2 days leave to Johor and Singapore with my family. Seems like I traveled a lot of places in 2010. Well, it was really interesting ^^ I hope i can travel to many places in 2011 as well.

December, we had a company Christmas dinner at Marche Movenpick @ The Curve. It was a great night where everyone had really nice dinner and played hard. We had a best costume contest, Ipod as the grand prize. Slurp.... NICE... but it was won by my colleague. She really deserved it! She's got the look ^^ BRAVO~~~

New Year eve, I stayed at home as usual. Basically, as i said, 2010 was really a good year for me. I achieved some of the goals which I had planned early in 2010. Though I couldn't complete and achieve all of my 2010 goals, I'll continue my effort in 2011. Hope 2011 will be another good year for me. Even it's quite irrelevant to say Happy New Year now, i wish all my friends work well, eat well, live well. Stay healthy, happy and pretty.

Love you guys..

Email posting

2011-03-21T19:53:00.002+08:00

Testing testing.

Just want to test can my post be published via email. I wish it works, so I can update my blog easily. Anytime, anywhere when I have THE MOOD.

Yea, time to "show off"!!!
I changed my old phone two months ago. I'm now using my new buddy - Samsung Galaxy 5.

Yep, brother of Galaxy S, smaller and much cheaper!

How is it?
Ok, it's good enough for me. But the screen is abit small and sometimes... Slow.

Well, that's why Iphone and Samsung Galaxy S are expensive!

This is my first smartphone, and I signed up Digi Smart Plan @ RM65 which offers unlimited internet access. Quite expensive huh? I think so, but it's worth.

You know, it'll make your life easier if you can read news while traveling in the train! Also, stay in contact with friends via gtalk, wassup, emails etc. Anytime, anywhere!

Of course you need to make sure you have enough battery, smartphones are hungry for batteries... they can kill your battery within a few hours...

For friends who plan to change cellphone, beside Iphones, can consider Android phones.
I like Androids!
I live swype!

Time changed, be connected!
Start with a smartphone ^^

不安

2011-01-17T01:23:00.002+08:00

不知何因，
就是觉得浑身不自在，
忐忑不安。
似空虚，似无奈，似彷徨。。。
感觉上很想逃避某些事，
很想闭关不理外面都发生什么事。
只想赖在父母身边，
很想像小孩子那样撒娇。
很希望大哭一场以后，感觉会好一些。
可是，为何哭？为何闹？
都长大了，还发什么小孩子脾气呢？

有时很恨自己的任性和臭脾气。。。
不发脾气，心头上的气要如何消化是好？

理性多了，有时还真想放肆一次～
放肆多了，还真想被人管教管教一下～
爸爸妈妈可以凶一点吗？
突然想起SHE的歌，不想长大。。。。

啊啊啊～～～
我快疯了～～～～

部落格新面孔

2010-12-12T16:29:00.003+08:00

这个设计用了好几年，开始觉得闷了。
换了个新背景，有没有很新鲜/新潮的感觉？

美丽的童年

2010-12-11T22:37:00.006+08:00

这是我最近看的书，姚拓著。
出版于1962年，1990和1991再版。
托同事的福，看了一本具娱乐性的书。

作者来自中国，应该是在世界二战期间来到了南洋 -- 马来西亚。
也许身在异乡，看着当下孩子们的童年不禁想起他家农民时期的童年故事。
>>> 后来Google了下姚拓的背景,老先生不是因为二战来到大马。

对出生在城市里的我们来说，他们的童年是多么的遥不可及。
他们只在书本里认识戏院和火车，却从来没真正见识过。
或许就像我们。
认识稻田和牛车，却不是每个人进过稻田和水牛散步。

虽然写的全是属于男生的童年故事，可是我不禁地羡慕他曾经的顽皮。
上山，爬树，偷吃，打架，作弄别人～～
这是小孩子的“天职”。

看了这本书以后我也回想了下我的童年。
弟弟出世前，只有在婆婆家里我才能骑着我的脚车和邻居们嬉戏。
我们玩追追，玩屏屏(抓迷藏）。
还记得婆婆坐在门口，捧着碗拿着汤匙喂孙女吃晚餐。
孙女吃了一口就往外跑玩耍去，吃完一口再跑回来要婆婆再喂一口。
有时顽皮到要婆婆叫才会回去吃饭。

说到偷吃东西，我不敢偷吃别家院子的水果。
我偷吃妈妈的维他命，结果被爸爸妈妈打到半死。
我记得我从幼稚园回家，家门是关上的。
我还以为没有人。
整条走廊也没有人，风平浪静。
谁知道家门一开，我就被拉进家里受罚。
父母亲把家门窗关上，家里没开灯。
爸爸一手拿鸡毛帚，另一只把我两只小手扣着（爸爸的手可真大）。
妈妈手中也拿了支藤条。
两个人口中骂着，手中的武器也啪啪地打在女儿身上。
我记得我真的哭惨了，一直说不敢不敢了，一直哀求不要打了不要打了。
当年老爸老妈的火气还真得很旺盛，
不知道爸妈打骂了多久。
那段时间真的非常难熬。
总之那次以后我真的不敢偷吃了。
现在想回来，老爸老妈当年真的像黑社会。

对了，妈妈还说我小时候因为贪吃而偷吃虾米。
这事儿我不记得了，不过以我往年的懵懂应该发生过这样的事。
后来妈妈说是他的错，他们应该多买吃的放在家里。
当我们这些小孩想要吃的时候才不会“饥不择食”嘛！
嘻嘻，有道理！

最糗的是，以前做大日子。
在婆婆家可以吃很好吃的白切鸡。
我爱吃鸡不爱吃皮，把鸡皮剥了要人不知鬼不觉的放回盘里。
结果被伯母识破了，大人还取笑我这小瓜“偷吃不抹嘴”。
小时候的我可真老实～

有了弟弟以后，我的童年更是有趣了。
他是我的玩伴也是培养大姐姐气势的对象。
记得去年我问他：弟，你恨我吗？
他说：恨！
我知道他开玩笑的啦,我那么疼他,他怎么舍得恨我呀?
虽然以前不懂事，弟弟每次受我耳光，可是我都是为他好的（理直气壮）！

每每到婆婆家，他骑我的老铁马，我骑向邻家孩子借回来的大铁马。
一大群人骑过牛场，越过小山芭和印度村。
比赛看谁最快回到原点。
一群不知天高地厚的家伙，不怕迷路，也不怕被人抓去，更不怕蛇虫鼠蚁。
只顾自地玩～

我们在婆婆家过新年，过中秋。
在家乡放鞭炮，玩蜡烛提灯笼。
还会把婆婆家的藤沙发反过来当大炮车，在老家大厅里大战～

在城市里不能自由地到处跑，
一定要得到妈妈的允许才能和弟弟到附近的草场去。
十年光景，我们在那里曾经交上几只狗朋友。
我们和小狗跑步，喂它吃东西。
还把它引回家里希望妈妈给我们养狗狗。
妈妈当然不答应，结果我们只有每天傍晚才能约会狗狗。

有一时期吹来了股放风筝的热潮，我和弟弟学放风筝。
风筝飞得高高地，
有时连线也不够长继续让风筝往更高更远的地方飞去。
后来风少了，风筝飞不起来了。
渐渐的也没再放风筝了~

在学校里，我和同学爬矮树。
找了个坑当成我们的家。
每当上学前和下课的时候，大家就会到家里坐坐。
我们用叶子当青菜，用石头当锅当碟。
还把花朵当成特别材料，刚从巴刹买回来的新鲜菜，
要“妈妈”煮上一顿好菜。

我们曾经一起抓蚱蜢，
玩蝌蚪（恶心死了！），
把蜗牛放进男生的抽屉里。
在图书馆外除草大开杀戒把蚯蚓分尸。
玩五粒子，跳绳，跳飞机（小小年纪就会了，嘿嘿！），
老鹰抓小鸡～
我还记得我们有过长长的小鸡群，两只大老鹰。

打含羞草，采花取蜜。
用鞋子丢树上的芒果。
还好我的鞋子没试过被大树没收。

对了，上课的时候偷跑出来买零食吃。
听写的时候作弊。
老师讲课的时候打呼，传字条，看漫画～

对了，我是个老实人。
我的汉语拼音很了得。
记得有个很要好的男生在考试的时候问我要答案。
我很想帮他又怕被发现，那时候老师很厉害，
派考卷的时候也有本事把作弊的人揪出来。
我决定不帮他又怕他和我绝交。
于是我把有翘舌音的变成没翘舌，
后鼻音变成前鼻音～
自以为是有帮好过没帮。

结果我拿了满分，他拿了鸭蛋。
他很记仇哦！
事情过了十多年，当我们说起以前的事。
他都会提起～
不过想回来还真的很好笑～

比起现在的孩子来说，我的童年算得上是精彩的。
现在的孩子越来越聪明，看不起非电子的玩意儿。
连五岁的小孩都会玩 iphone，
你说现在的人是不是越来越进步，
越来越没有懵懂好笑的童年？

你的童年又是怎样的呢？

姑娘不爽

2010-12-01T19:36:00.005+08:00

最近看了一本书《姑娘不爽》。
乍看书名就觉得这本书蛮有趣的～
结果？

它真的很有趣！
我还给它取了个外号，一本“姑婆书”。
姐妹们，看了这本书以后，我想你对婚姻不会再有憧憬和梦幻这两个字了。
可能你不想嫁人了！
看了这本书以后，你会了解到现实生活的残酷。
梦幻只不过是那匹白色的嫁衣。

我是不是太偏激了呢？
看了这本书是真的有点激动啦！
不过不会沉浸在书里把全世界的男人都当成坏人来看待。
作者写的都是坏事，所以不要以偏概全把全世界的男人都否定了。
这本书的确让读者增添了值得思考的空间，真的是本不错的材料！

和大家分享一下这本书的一些课题：

1. 姑娘不爽家人的理由
～要求公平的女人
男人的“男主外、女主内”的传统思想
我喜欢作者其中的一句话：如果女人要把持家计、操持家务等家庭重担一肩挑起。而男人则可能用他的钱去交际应酬，为升官发财铺路，甚至去取悦别的女人，我想我没那么伟大也不相信爱情有那么伟大。所以你如果不甘心只有你一个人操持家里的大小事务，那就不嫁好了。
～当一加一小于一的时候
如果结婚以后让原本的生活变得差，那么这个婚是结来折磨自己吗？是不是不结也罢？

2. 不忠诚的男人
～她的男人是别人的老公
～女人都会犯的错
以为男人会改变。
～来吧！做我的第三者
那些已婚或已有女朋友但不放弃再追女友或继续寻找另一半的男士。

3. 自私的男人
～一切向“钱”看的男人
～男人不肯和心爱的女人一起尽孝道
有句话作者说的很有意思：父母是我们一生中亏欠最多的人。如果姑娘们无法预估自己结婚后，还能不能尽到对父母的孝敬。那么只要工作稳定、经济足以应付，为什么把自己“卖”出去当次等公民？若是不结婚可以成全孝道，又可以心安理得，不婚又有什么关系？
～充斥着谎言的婚姻
～没有肩膀，而且还要骗色骗财的男人
～他心里只有自己
～当男人只剩一张嘴
光会使唤你，奴隶你

4. 没有肩膀的男人
～女人的事业不被尊重
奉承母亲极力反对女人拥有自己的事业的男人，你要吗？
～不会为你撑起一个家的男人
在选择男友之前不仅要了解他有没有稳定的工作，或是经济自立的能力。最重要的是还得看他的一份工作可以做多久，是不是一个变动频繁的人？
结了婚要担心老公，担心孩子，甚至老公有债务要替他还，而老公却是个不踏实的人。这桩婚姻是件亏本又伤身的事。

５.没诚意的男人
～女朋友和女的朋友的差别
分不清女朋友和女的朋友之间的界定，是女的一视同仁。更糟的是，往往更关心和体贴女朋友以外的异性朋友。你受得了吗？
～上不了柜面的男生
不能融入你的生活圈子里还刻意逃避接洽和应酬的男人你可以忍受吗？内向老实不是坏事，可是“孤僻”～～～不好了吧～
～要女人隐身于男人背后
正式交往以后还把女朋友藏起来，居心叵测！

６.　挑剔的男人
～过分的要求不等于良心的建议
女人不要一味地满足男人的要求而失去了自己，结果打击了自信心也难以重拾过去的信心。不值！
～我不要做他的妈妈
凡事以妈妈为标准来挑剔女人的不是，难顶～
～言必称其前女友
去到哪，做到什么事都会提及前女友，甚至做比较。没活在当下的男人，不要也罢。

７.自卑的男人
～莫名的自卑
无法接受女人的收入比自己多而产生的自卑感。我个人认为这样的男人很悲哀，可是我不否认这是很难受的感觉。毕竟自古以来，男人都是以一个较高的姿态来承担一切。现在要老婆来承担大部分的开支，还有大男人主义的男人都很难吃得消。

虽然我不完全认同作者的观点，可是她的确提到了很重要的一点。
女人要结婚可要好好的考虑清楚。
对方是否可以让自己更快乐，和对方家人相处是否可以和平共处和不会要你牺牲掉家人和事业。
婚姻像一笔投资。
以自己未来的生活、家人、事业和时间作为筹码。
这桩婚姻值得吗？
别一味地认为爱情饮水饱。
在残酷的现实生活里，爱情的体抗力有多强呀？

总结来说，这本书的确影响了我。
几个星期前我还在想婚不婚影响不大，尽责就好。
可是现在～
大人的世界真的复杂！

失败的友谊？

2010-11-30T22:04:00.003+08:00

今天是三十号，怎么这个月那么的空写博客呢？
我想原因有三：
1. 太久没写博客了，不记下来久而久之就会忘光光！！！
2. 今年的总成绩不佳，再不多写就是历年来排第二最少事的一年了。
3. 最近生活如此的压力和烦闷，在这里说些有的没的心情会好点嘛～

好了，今天特想写写心情感想。
作为好朋友的我有时会觉得自己挺失败的。

记得好几次我都是成为事情尘埃落定后的听众，朋友有事的时候不会找我。
我有时会想问题到底出现在哪儿，真的像他们说的那样怕我骂吗？
不过有些事多个人多个麻烦；还是不要太多人参与比较好～

在我这小小的圈子里，幸好其中一个出现问题的时候大家都会互相扶持。
一有不开心的事儿也会找人谈谈。
也许我不善于给意见，和我谈太乏味了。
也许我说太多了，说的人觉得没趣。
也许我说了等于没有说，太浪费时间。
也许我的性格太耿直了，怕我说了自己不爱听的话（也就是被骂！）。
或许怕和我说了，会受伤害。
其实我蛮希望可以在朋友需要帮忙的时候挺身而出，需要听众的时候会找我诉诉苦。

虽然如此，我并不是被边缘化。
也许天时地利不在我这，而我也没能给对方定下心来的能耐。
当然，没事就是好事。
好朋友没有特别消息也代表大家过得还好。

说到这是不是觉得我们感情很不好呢？
不不不，十多年朋友了。
不需要黏黏贴贴，大概知道大家都忙些什么就好。
毕竟自己的事多的是～

我们不会刻意去关心对方的事，我们习惯由当事人自己说出来。
我不喜欢时常问：”最近都在忙什么呀？”，感觉很生疏。
在特别的场合里，当我们几个不齐人的时候，友人都会问问：“最近XXX怎样了？”
当我们无法解释清楚又或是说不知道的时候，友人就会瞪着眼睛像在问：“你们散了吗？”
我甚至听过友人说： “都不知道你们这班怎样做朋友的？”

这么多年以来，我们似乎形影不离。
对很多人来说，我们几个就是一体了。
说“不知道”好像有点太过分～
想想还真的很失败。

不过仔细想想，今日不如昔日。
很多事儿已不像我们十多岁的时候，什么都可以说、都说得通。
那时候的我们都在同一个环境下生活。
上课放学，上补习班，搞活动等都一块儿。
现在各有各自的生活，身边也多了一个叫老公或男朋友的人。
琐碎的事可以和老公或男朋友说，
有问题可依靠老公或男朋友。
朋友则扮演着老公和男朋友的候补。
加上工作环境不一样，话题就更少了。

总结来说，我还觉得我们这一伙相处的还挺正常的。
只是缺乏了些对彼此的关心。
虽然如此，我觉得这样还可以被接受。
因为我知道不管是谁发生了什么事，我们几个人都不会袖手旁观。
即使我们可能做得不够好，我敢肯定的是我们都不会让对方独自伤心悲哀地面对问题。
我们没能帮对方解决问题，可是我们的精神支持还真的很强的～

说了老半天，我到底要表达些什么呢？
唉，不理了。
我知道你们几个都在看我这篇废话。
只想告诉你们：
对于某些事我不问不代表我不关心；
我只是认为你若想说的就会说。
我不理不代表我没有那份心；
我只认为你已经有足够能力去解决一些问题。

或许我没那种能力帮你解决问题或让你好过一些，
不过如果你需要我在你身边的时候，
我会尽力而为的～

最后一句，得空主动email下我们几个update一下近况。
不然别人以为我们“散了”不是很好笑吗？
好啦，废话讲完了！

老人

2010-11-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

今天午餐的时候，突然听到打翻碗的声音。
闻声一看，有个人滑倒在地在桌子旁躺着，周围的人开始慌了起来。

我看着那穿着褐色鞋子的脚，轻轻地动了几下。
感觉上那个人躺了很久都没爬起来，我自己也开始慌了。**
后来有两个大男人把对方扶起来坐好。
是个白头发的老人家，他还向老uncle伸一伸手表示不好意思。
老人家没事儿，看起来是吓了一跳。

看着那老人的背影，我在想他正在想些什么？
是怪自己没用吗？
是怪自己的骨头不争气码？
会觉得很糗吗？

“我老了以后，如果不能走不会上厕所要人照顾的话，我宁愿死！
我不要别人照顾，不要受这种委屈！
我宁可战死沙场我也不要老死，死也要死的有尊严。”
老爷爷的遭遇让我想起了这一番话～

是气话还是真心话，我真的不知道。（感觉上气的成分比较高）
可是我不希望这种想法会植在老人家的脑袋里。
我希望父母亲也不会这样想～
我见过开朗而且很看得开的老年人，
也亲耳听老年人说自己没用拖累家人，希望老天爷快快把他带走免累人。

老爷爷这事儿像把锤子在我脑袋敲了一下。
虽然双亲看起来还很年轻，可是我知道他们也长了不少白头发。
有时抱怨这里不舒适，那里疼～
连爬楼梯也没像以前那么有气魄了。
看着那老年人，我像看到了未来的爸爸妈妈～
我担心父母亲年老的时候会自卑和自暴自弃，
即使我们给多少的温暖他们也不能接受自己生理退化的事实。
我担心我劝得口破舌兰都没办法让他们往好的方向思考。
我担心他们把我们当成永远长不大的孩子而拒绝我们的照顾～

人嘛，不能一直眷属着过去的美好。
即使当下的条件不理想，可是总有值得欣赏和快乐的事。
要以平常心看待自己和过日子，
接受自己欠佳的地方，凡事看开点。
开心安乐地走完这一生不好吗？

我们能以一个过来人的角度来猜测比我们年纪小的想法，
可是对老年人却没有把握。
他们或许会变得很敏感，
会被某些话伤害到自尊心，
会因为没人谅解而感到孤单。
关心一个小孩子非常容易；
关心一个年迈的老人是一门学问。
Handle with EXTRA care.

我嘴巴一直嚷着时间过得很快，
它的确很快～
我希望父母亲过几年可以不用那么辛苦，
可以缓慢生活的节奏，培养身心健康，
我更希望自己可以再能干点为他们两老做些事。
可是这一切都需要时间。

爸爸常说，当你们能过上好生活的时候，
我想我们也没能享受多少年。

和父母的时间还有多少个十年？
对父母来说，我们就是他们的一切。
时间vs生活，我选择时间。
天伦之乐，无价~

**
曾经在快捷里站我对面的女生突然倒地翻白眼，也听说过同学发羊颠的事。
所以对倒地的人我都会有些紧张～
可偏偏我反应有点迟钝，每事发时我都比人慢半拍行动。
想起今午的事，我慌什么呀？
坐得那么远能帮上什么忙？
反应太大了～

狮城.新山之旅@大姑婆

2010-11-21T10:26:00.000+08:00

其实我并不认识大姑婆。
但弟弟比我强多了，他曾经参加过大姑婆的生日也收过大姑婆的新年红包。
不是因为大姑婆摆大寿，我想不知何年何月才会知道大姑婆的存在。

听说大姑婆今年九十一岁了。
当我一见到大姑婆的时候，她老人家站得挺直的。
说话也很有力，被曾孙拉着还能走得稳。
老人家说她一把年纪了，幸得老天保佑让她没大病痛。
行得走得，没大小方便烦恼，万分的感恩。

虽然第一次见面（或许不是第一次。只是我不记得～），
可我和大姑婆却谈天谈了一个小时。
那还是我说客家话说得最多的一天。
大家会不会很好奇我们都谈些什么？

说来还挺有趣的。
大姑婆像给我上了刘家历史课，从她那一代说起。
每年清明我们都得给太公和太婆打理墓地，我公公有两个妈妈这个我知道。

大姑婆说她和我公公是大妈生的孩子，还有个弟弟。
不过太婆很早就去世了～
二妈为家里添了两个弟弟和四个妹妹。
有些已经离世了，有些移民到外国去鲜少联络。
我公公排名第二，在我还没出世的时候就去世了。
我有个叔公（我认识的）经常会来新山拜访她老人家。

不但如此，她对晚辈的生活点滴还真的了如指掌。
问我关于伯父们和姑姑们的状况如何，
甚至还记得他们有多少个孩子，
哪一个结婚了，哪一个做些什么等等。

后来大姑婆说起他的孙子和曾孙，
她很高兴我会说客家话。
现在的年轻人有很多都不会说自己的方言。
老人家和新时代的年亲人真的很难沟通。
虽然是客家人，可是孩子们（不是她带大的）不会说也不会听。
虽是亲人但出现这般的障碍，感觉很别扭。

对我而言，传承很重要。
风俗和传统是故人一代一代传下来的。
它像线一样把现在和以前牵在一起。
哪怕一种传统在几千，几百或几十年后只传承了一小部分那也是样很珍贵的东西。

现在许多父母即使懂得方言也不会教小孩说。
大家都太注重华语和英语了。
虽然如此，我觉得孩子们是必须知道自己的方言。

对了，我问过大姑婆了。
我们是属于那一客？
大家听过河婆客吧？
听过 ai fm的客语新闻吗？我想那就是河婆客。
可是我不是河婆客家人，我们是属于徽州的。
我想加影和沙登的客家人都是说徽州客话，和我家说得一样。
外公外婆也是吧～

和大姑婆说话让我想起我的外婆和婆婆。
我已经好久没像那一天接触老人家了。
老人家的和蔼可亲和热情让我觉得很温暖和贴心。
大姑婆一定是很开心有人和她谈天。
说了很多也笑得眯眯眼。

身为家中的长女，也看了接近一个世纪的风风雨雨。
我想大姑婆的一生可真不容易。
不过我觉得她是个很乐观的人，很开心也知足。

大姑婆的寿宴摆了九席，四代同堂热闹得很。
在我眼里，大姑婆是个很有福气的人。
希望她健康快乐　^^

我们从新加坡塞着车进来新山。虽然是乌龟速度的车程，

可那一会儿行驶一会儿停车把我晕车症都摇出来了！辛苦极了　T_T

原本打算酒宴后就赶车回家，可是车程至少四五个小时。回到家岂不是快天亮了？
由于长巴事故的原因，我对夜间行驶是非常抗拒的。
晚上驾驶很伤神。与其赶夜车还不如在大姑婆家住一晚白天回家？
终于我老爸采用了我的建议，星期日早上吃了早饭后才回家！！！

虽然回来以后觉得很累，可是我度过了满有意思的假期。

11 Nov - 14 Nov 2010

狮城.新山之旅@亲人

2010-11-21T01:13:00.004+08:00

和朋友见面以后，我还是在Orchard徘徊。
还特地逛Sony Center看看有没有PS Move，不然可以给男朋友一个惊喜。
谁知连新加坡也没了~~

八点约了许久不见的家人吃饭。
对于这两位堂兄姐，我有许多无法表达的话和感觉。
当堂姐在MRT出口那方向和我扬扬手再跑过来给我拥抱时，
我真的真的很想哭。
也许是分开许多年了，即使我走在她的身边我也感觉自己离她好远好远。
我还记得过年过节的时候，我们在婆婆家的趣事。
虽然记忆模糊，但感觉仍然非常亲切。

不久堂哥也出现了，和照片一样也和他老爸一个样。
看着他们俩，我只感到安慰。
我现在和我家人在一起哦！
还一起吃饭 ^^结果我们去了间餐厅，分量很少但贵得很。
有很好吃的牛排，可是就没有好喝的果汁 >.< 正餐以后不够饱，我们去了楼下吃甜品继续聊天。虽然一顿饭和甜品花了短短几个小时，可是我已经觉得很满足了。说真的是有点短，可是天下无不散之宴席呀！
我只希望堂哥堂姐一家要快乐，要健康。
我也希望他们知道，我们一家都想念他们。
要保持联络哦~

对了，那天晚上我还是第一次一个人晚上打的回家。
谢谢堂姐和堂哥为我接的的士。
在马来西亚，这是不可能会发生的事情！！！
除了PJ的士，其他地区我一个人是不会上车的。
说真的，当司机抄小路回红茂桥的时候，我心里毛毛的。
不过我相信新加坡治安好，所以也没乱想些什么。

终于回到红茂桥。
大伯父搬家了，虽然小了一点可是却装修得非常漂亮。
很舒服。

回到大伯家，最高兴的莫过于见到我的小堂弟权权。
妈妈说堂弟一见到他们就问起我来。
嘿嘿，看来我这堂姐在他的心目中分量不小！

那天晚上男人们全都睡了；剩下大伯母，妈妈和我坐在厨房里谈天。
我这老人精自小就喜欢听大人们说话，现在长大了还能说上一份~
可是真的太累了，最后还是我带头睡觉的。
不然这两个aunty不知道是不是要谈到天荒地老。

第二天早上和大伯父一家吃早餐，然后逛红茂乔巴刹。
由于睡眠不足，我像梦游似的。
还好有堂弟在身边吱吱喳喳说个不停，不然我看起来一定像行尸走肉。
逛了巴刹后逛红茂桥广场，睡眠不足真的没心情欣赏周围的东西。
我就一直拖着堂弟跟着大人屁股后面互相打闹，小孩子玩得真开心~

回到家以后，我便趴在床上睡得像死猪那样一直到旁晚三四点。
在新加坡的第二天我是这样过的，一点旅行的样子都没有！
说真的，我比较喜欢睡眠充足的旅行。
不喜欢台消耗力气和精神。
可旅行往往都比较累人~ >.< 希望下次拜访的时候，能待久一点。要到圣淘沙和金沙那走走，到百货逛街买东西！可是兑换率 RM2.42 = SGD1.00

还是存多点钱再打算好了~~

狮城.新山之旅@朋友

2010-11-20T00:36:00.007+08:00

我们星期四下午两点出发到柔佛新山。
由于我爸驾车是出名的慢很小心，
到大姑婆的家已经是旁晚七时四十五分了。

由于和大姑婆谈天谈了一个小时，
没及时和住在柔佛的大学同学联络，
当晚的聚会也泡汤了。
幸好还是成功安排了早餐聚会。
我真地履行了到柔佛找她的话！
嘿嘿~

几个月不见，小白没有什么变化。
刚生病痊愈的她也没什么苍白的痕迹。
好事~
看来在新山的日子过得很不错哦！

我们只有一个小时半的早餐时间。
小白带我到她中学附近吃早餐，还说了当初的“威水事”。
现在的小白有驾照了，吃了早餐后还带我到她以前打工的地方参观。
Pulai Resort。
院子很大的酒店~
可是我被摆在走廊旁边的告示板吓倒了。
什么 holy ground, ..... bible.... 等~
像告诉人家这一层有肮脏东西，要带上Bible~
=_=!

参观完酒店以后，小白把我送回大姑婆家。
世界真的小呀，没想到大姑婆的孙女是小白的朋友哦~
听说她在新加坡做工，所以我没见到她也不认识她~

早餐以后我们一家和堂叔等人便出发到新加坡了。
一踏进新国和父亲在Woodlands办理好CPF手续后，
我便搭MRT到Orchard Road与中学朋友-Munching见面。
在马来西亚以外的国家见面，感觉很特别。
另外，也非常高兴能见到n年不见的校友-- Jessy。
样子没怎么变，不过我还是第一次和她逛街谈天呢！
希望她工作顺利，步步高升！

我们三人吃了顿很棒的午餐，也逛了好几小时百货。
大家有说有笑。
当Munching问起工作的事，我也觉得气馁。
对过来人来说，我必须要往前看。
如果真的觉得不合适就要为自己找到更好的发展。
Munching,很佩服你的勇气呢！
一直以来都很欣赏你的上进心，在新国要加油哦！

Munching 和 Jessy 当晚会有个火锅聚餐。
只可惜晚上约了家人吃饭，不然我又能见到另一个中学朋友--ShengCui。
不知道原来ShengCui也在新加坡。
记得最后一次见他好像是在 Time Square 和 zac 偶然碰见的。
又是几年前的事了~

真得很难的，很多人毕业以后就失去联络了。
我很庆幸还能和大家保持联系，偶尔一起吃饭是很棒的事情！
希望很快地又能再见到大家。
不管是在新加坡的，在泰国美国还是其他国家的。
有机会一定要找时间出来聚聚哦！

狮城.新山之旅

2010-11-19T21:40:00.007+08:00

去年年头是因为堂哥的婚礼，去了一趟新加坡。
年尾和表哥去找朋友吃风。
今年是因为住在柔佛的大姑婆摆大寿顺便混进狮城转转。

但每一次都是匆匆忙忙地踏进新国，匆匆忙忙地离开。
第一次逗留不到一天，凌晨赶车，到了伯母家时间都花在周公身上。
晚宴后又赶车回来了。

第二次总算有旅行的感觉了。
跟着爱拍照的表哥走了好几公里的路，虽然累但感觉还不错。
由于是圣诞节, 走到哪里都有五颜六色的街灯和人群。
非常热闹~
走到哪里都是购物天堂，可是对我这穷光蛋来讲每一件物品我只看到 $xx@RM2.41。
要是赚那里的钱，在那里花就很好了。

那一次的旅行真的感谢表哥的朋友让我们在他们的家寄宿一天，
也很感谢大伯父请我们吃了一顿很棒的晚餐。
鲈鱼头汤很好喝哦^^

对了，还记得我那两个小瓜--权权（10岁的堂弟）和他的侄女乐敏（也就是我的堂侄女）。
见到我们（应该只有我罢了）就成了麦芽糖，黏着我支支呀呀地说个不停。
我左手拉一个，右手拖一个。
他们好像乐翻了，两个小瓜怎么那么好客？
一定是我太善良，而且肯和他们说小孩子话。
所以大家特别投缘！=_=!!

当我们要走的时候，两个小瓜红了眼睛看着我，还说：怎么酱快走？不住我们家了吗？
……。
好感动哦！虽然一年见没多少次，记得我就很好了。还会向我撒娇！！！
我都要融化了，真得很想把他们抱得紧呀紧!

去年的照片：

表哥的照相技术不错吧？

晚饭前的“甜品”在酒吧解决。
还记得这间酒吧对面有间诊疗所酒吧，病床轮椅都摆在外头呢。
后来从伯父口中得知，那间酒吧的料理很特别~~ T_T 好想试哦！

那时候左手边的赌场大楼还没完工呢，不过看起来已经很宏伟了！
（不用找了~~ 这张照片的主角是我，所以看不到大楼。）

我们搭了很多次的电梯才能到的顶楼。
那里有餐厅还有个花园~ 抱歉，忘了叫什么地方。
只知道望下去，整条街很亮！

是次的拜访也是特别匆忙，不过这次我们不搭飞机也不驾车入境。
我记得很小的时候，我和家人是坐着旅行巴士入境的。
那时候的Kastam不像现在这个样子。
我还记得那时候的我睡不醒，跟着爸妈像是在排队入境~~。
哇，真的是 n 年的事了。
自Kastam装修后，我还是第一次踏入那灰色的建筑物。
里边就像机场一样，还真得很有水准。

在新国的第一天，我把时间给了朋友和多年不见的堂哥堂姐。
第二天给了家人和大伯母逛红茂桥巴刹和广场。
短短的两天一夜游就这样过去了。
我家人还拜访过新赌场呢，而我就只会说：没关系，下次再来参观。机会多的是！
现在想起来，我是不是太落伍了？到了新加坡也不会去参观金沙赌场和逛圣淘沙？
……。

没关系，没关系！
机会多的是~
旅游胜地不会跑掉的，下次再来它一定还在那儿！

由于没人拿相机，照片拍得少呀少~
所以是次的旅游分享，没照片！

好朋友的婚礼

2010-11-18T21:14:00.007+08:00

这是我第二个好朋友嫁人。
第一个已经为人母好几年了，两个孩子乖巧可爱。
很高兴我们家的佩雯终于也嫁人了！！！
想起当初他们的第一次约会，还有我这个电灯泡。
真的没想到，那个个子高高的男人竟然成了我们佩雯的老公。
可惜呀，我们对这位准老公不怎么了解。
不然在接新娘的时候会玩得癫一些。
由于双方都不了解，隔膜太大了。还真的满多冷场面~
惭愧，惭愧~
可我们真的尽力了，男嘉宾们太强了。
招架不住，拿他们没办法！！！
无论如何，看好朋友幸福开心就好了。
虽然她嫁得不远，可是怎么比她还没嫁人的时候更想念她呢？
佩雯，祝你能好好而且开开心心地适应在婆家的生活。
想念我们的时候，给我们摇通电话。
有时候一起出来吃饭逛街，可别有了老公把我们四个给忘了哦！！！

不知为什么，特别感动。
姐妹群众虽然不多，可是都是好朋友。
虽然佩雯时常忙得不见人影，可是在她两次的晚宴里。
我们都觉得自己好像她的家人一样那么的亲切。
看着她披上嫁衣，有难以形容的感触。
佩雯总是让人有种想保护她的感觉。
我自命不能解决什么大问题，可是我可以给你一个很温暖的拥抱。
当然我希望你不会找我要安慰的拥抱，有什么大小事找你老公！
我的拥抱只想告诉你，即使你嫁人了。
我们始终不变！

你一定要幸福哦！

各位兄弟们，非常抱歉。那味道怪怪的芝士酿苦瓜是我们的杰作。

把酿料加厚的是我！可是点子不是我出的，嘿嘿！

这对是我们认识了十年的朋友。几年不见，他的评语是：你们还是老样子没变！

听起来好怎么感觉很讽刺？！不过，不变证明我们看起来才不过十多二十岁呀！
值得高兴！！

2010年10 月23日

消费观

2010-11-17T23:33:00.003+08:00

最近看《非诚勿扰》，男嘉宾都会大概大概说说自己的消费观。
我的消费观~~~

吃不能省！
穿戴不用名牌，品质值得信赖就好。
除了贴身物品，美容与化妆品以外，只要价格合理的话都能接受。

我记得有位认识我不久的aunty和我逛二手市场的时候说：我看你一定只会买名牌的！
我也记得有位认识我不久的uncle和我相处了几天说：我看你一定不喜欢shopping的，你和其他女生不一样！

Shopping?我喜欢！只是不喜欢自己没打算买东西和荷包空荡荡的时候逛街。有钱的话，我什么都爱看！
至于名牌？
我只看　Vincci　的鞋子，Seed　和　P&Co　折扣50%的上衣，Voir　折扣后的裤子，Nichii和 Kitschen不超过RM100的物品。
这算名牌吗？对我来说Guess, Esprit, U2, EllE, Levi's是名牌。TopShop, MNG, Zara, Element等是高消费的东西，通常进去就只有看得份。
我身上最贵的就是我去年在新加坡Charles & Keith带回来的包包。
那还是忍痛给自己买回来的礼物。
我不带名贵手表，身上没值钱的东西，连用的手机也已经四五岁了。
前阵子还被五岁大的小伙子取笑说我带的东西都很破旧 T__T
我觉得他还真的提醒我是时候换这个那个了。

我不会太在意自己穿戴，可是却有个很讲究的男朋友。
他常说：衣服可以穿得随便可不能穿错！
很惭愧，身为女生的我对潮流不敏感。
很多时候都会被这老人家念～
和他交往三年多了，我应该有进步了吧。
记得我在Vincci看中了一个荷包，因为是白色的关系没买下来。
每当想到要买荷包的时候，都会想起它。
有天终于和男朋友回到了那间Vincci，高兴地拉着男朋友的手走到柜子前～
本来很想告诉他我看中哪个荷包，可是到开口的前一秒我改口了：我要的那个卖完了！
其实那白色的宝贝还在架子上，只是平时被这老人家念这的念那的搞得信心都没了。反正已经决定不要买了，就不要给机会他念好了～
谁知，他看着那白色的宝贝说：那个不错！
我真的喜出望外！！！难得，我的眼光不错吧～
到现在我都没告诉他我一早就看中这个小宝贝，但经过这次以后我想我不会在临阵退缩了。
有时候女人的东西他懂得未必比我多！
我喜欢的东西未必要得到他的认同！
我喜欢就好了。

我对美食的体抗力超底。
当然当荷包空空的时候，贵的食物可免则免。
可是每当被引诱的时候，我都会安慰自己说：不用紧，久久一次。快出粮了，钱也够用到月底。吃吧吃吧！

对了，我认识一个朋友。他很喜欢把自己说得好像很了解对方一样，也很喜欢教对方应该怎样怎样～
说真的，当初认识他的时候不觉得怎样，后来发现他那大男人和自以为是的主义让我喘不过气来。
我很介意他说：我都不知道你怎样用钱的？你告诉我你到底花在哪里，为什么每次都说自己没钱！
我的钱，我喜欢怎样花就怎样花。我爱花在哪里需要告诉你吗？
说来就气！！！
干什么理我？不是我家人也不是我男朋友，管那么多干什么？

最近我都会很懊恼，薪金不比人差，可是这几个月都是以双数收场。
工作一年多了，相机没买到，手机也没换到。
身上没穿多少件新衣裳，鞋子还是＂惨不忍睹＂的时候才换的。
人家说出来工作以后会变漂亮些，我看我还是老样子。
说起来还真得有点生气～

虽然我挣的钱没买着我一直想要的东西，可是却换了其他作为女儿和姐姐很珍贵的东西。
有钱什么都好，目前我只想尽快完成我要做的事。
相机，手机，什么的～
在等一些日子吧！

总之我不是很计较钱财，只是有时比较谨慎。
我不喜欢欠别人，也不喜欢别人欠自己。
不太喜欢朋友花钱在自己身上，没什么必要。（家人，男朋友除外！！）
不过我还是很感激朋友的好意，那是很窝心的礼物。
我只希望明年年中会好过一些，我不想再做穷光蛋了！！！
会赚钱以后方知父母的辛苦。
今后要好好计划如何挣钱如何花钱了～

机械人@生活Update - 11月

2010-11-11T10:30:00.003+08:00

工作一年多了，除了忙还是忙~
最近想了很多事。
不是讨厌工作，也不是因为工作太多而感到极度压力或愤怒。
同事们，甚至上司都觉得我最近怪怪的。
不怎么说话，脸臭得很。

没错，的确不怎么高兴。
但工作还得做，我只想快些把堆积如山的功夫做好。

我想过了，到底不高兴些什么？怎么感觉上心里有许多怨气。
我不喜欢埋怨这个，埋怨那个~
可是我还是会念些有的没的。
人嘛，发泄一下应该的。
可这种发泄会造成许多困扰。
EQ不好~
自找麻烦！

脸皮嘴角已经不会往上扬了，眼神有时好像要杀人似的。
似要示人不要惹我，似在暗示拒绝帮忙或问题~
当觉得上气不接下气的时候，我只想逃避不要紧的事。
麻烦大家找对的人，不要白撞~
只可惜，这些就只有希望。
公司上下 “几十” / “十几” 个人，难免会有沟通不当的事。
他们既然找上我来解决问题，我会尽力而为。

正在赶工作的时候，耐心几乎归零。
不想接不要紧的电话，理不要紧的事。
不想被人家催促，也不喜欢催促别人。
不想告诉你这件事以后，还要我重复三四回。
不想我告诉你A,你回答我B.
不想我三番四次告诉你是A的时候，你一直活在自己的世界想着B.

仔细想想，不想的一切一切还只是小事。
我不高兴的是整体公司的管理方式，管理层的处事作风与态度。
更别说公司的管理制度。
我只有“可恨”这个词来形容。

想起当初我在Marcus Evan递辞呈的那种心情感受。
不一样。
虽然会因为工作和环境而感到失望，
但我仍然热爱我的工作。
目前为止，除了月薪以外，没什么能满足我了。
感觉自己像机械人，一副虚壳。
除了做便没什么吸收，没什么成长。

不是没东西学，只是没时间没精力~
我不是工作狂，我提倡工作与生活一定要得到平衡。
回到家，我尽可能不碰工作。
回到家，我需要自己的空间。

或许我们公司要的就是那种一心一意为公司，
上下班或放假都要挂念公司的员工。
我觉得我们公司就是这样要求的，
我看不见让员工平衡生活的努力和鼓励。
对了，我也不觉得公司对员工的珍惜与支持。

人家说，不要把丑事宣扬。
尤其是自家公司，这样会影响自己的形象。
像人一样，没有公司会喜欢别人的批评。
若是请了一个爱批评而且爱宣扬的员工，岂不是自找麻烦？

可是怎么办呢？
在什么情况下我可以不要戴面具做人？
面具太重了。
一种米养百种人，我就是这样的人。
可惜你还不了解~

请了两天假，四天以后心情会不会好一点呢？
等着呢~

Oceans (海洋)

2010-09-26T21:46:00.011+08:00

昨天和弟弟在PPS看了部很好的纪录片-- Oceans , 海洋。由雅克.贝汉(Jacques Perrin) 和雅克.克鲁奥德(Jacques Cluzaud)执导。电影虽然没告诉我们海底生物的种类和名称，却为我们揭开了海洋的面纱让我们更了解海底世界。

我很喜欢这部纪录片的拍摄镜头和音乐，不但清楚地抓住海底生物的每一个动作和神情，也非常生动地讲述它们的生活环境和方式。最重要的是这部电影所提倡的环保概念。为了让我们未来的子孙能够继续看到海底珍贵而且稀有的生物，我们必须要趁现在保护这片大海，减少污染和捕杀。

查看了些相关资料，这部电影用了四年拍摄时间，在超过50处的拍摄地点记录了超过100种罕见的生物。我看到了许多我念不出名字的生物，只知道会喷水的就是鲸鱼，像Jaws的就是鲨鱼，有尾巴有鳃像鱼缸里游泳的就是鱼，像虾蟹和海龟样的就属于虾蟹和海龟的种类。

一开始我就被很梦幻的水母吸引了，它们像海里的云或蒲公英一朵朵地飘浮。有些像会发光的电灯泡，为蓝蓝的海底增添不少色彩。

没见过成群结队的海豚在海上嬉戏，一只一只地跳出水面像跳水选手似的跳进水里。看过鲸鱼浮面才知道最优雅斯文的鱼就是他，轻轻地上来轻轻地沉下去。

都知道鲸鱼都是群体动物，可是不知道他们会开家庭派对集体浮出水面像海豚那样的戏水。看见了许多种类的鲸鱼，也看见鲸鱼游上海岸捕捉食物。凶猛的鲨鱼更紧紧跟着自己的猎物，就像卡通里的鲨鱼一样张开满是利牙的大口咬着可怜的海狗。

整部戏第一个让我激动的片段就是海龟出世的那一天。小海龟从白白细细的沙里爬出来，大家都很有默契地往大海的方向爬去。可是往往就差那么几步就被鸟儿叼走了 T_T （这群鸟还真会吃，懂得吃季节性的美食~）

海龟一出世就要来个生命大冒险，要是幸运能够顺利地游进海底，接下来要面对的就是海底的敌人。看到小海龟被叼走还活活被吃了，我宁愿它们还没成形的时候就被人类挖出来吃了呢！难怪海龟要产下如此多的海龟蛋~~

虽然在这个弱肉强食的世界里大鱼吃小鱼是很正常的现象，可是大鱼似乎也害怕寂寞。我们不难发现大鱼身边有小鱼陪伴，大鱼小鱼相依为命成了好搭档。小鱼像是大鱼的跟班，帮老大收拾垃圾清理门户；大鱼就像小鱼的保镖，以“大”制“大”保护伙伴。

以上这个图片是我最喜欢的片段。海象妈妈带着海象宝宝跃进水里游泳，我看见海象在水里就像人那样抱着自己的孩子。这真得让我惊喜万分！这一幕实在是太美了！！

最后让我激动的是人类对这些生物的迫害。他们的捕杀方式太残忍了！捕鲨人把鲨鱼游泳的背鳍和胸鳍都砍了，然后让活生生而且还留着血的鲨鱼丢回海里去。失去鳍的鲨鱼不能游泳，唯有一直往下沉。到海底了，鲨鱼每张一次大口，胸鳍的伤口就喷一次血。这样的动作不断地重复一直到鲨鱼死去~ 这种死亡方式实在太残忍了。为什么捕杀人就不能一刀把鲨鱼的生命结束掉呢？这样太折磨这个小生命了！！！

不只是我，看到这连我弟弟的眼睛都湿了。鲨鱼再怎么凶残都不比人类来得无情！
即使我很爱鱼翅汤，可是看了这一幕，我哪喝得下肚子呢？哎~~~

写到这我也不知如何接下去了，实在是太悲哀了~
总之，这是一部好影片！希望你能和我一样好好欣赏和感动一番~~ T____T

三杯茶

2010-09-24T00:18:00.004+08:00

我今天突然想到我这好久没拜访的老家，心血来潮地又写起部落格来了。
有两个月没好好记事了，好多本来想分享的事情都快忘光光了。>.< 由于一直还没为我今年度看过最好的书好好发表一下，今天我又要先“讲书”了。这是我在上届书市买的书。这篇发表文，其实老在我七月读书潮里就想给大家介绍介绍了。只是发布帖子需要些心思，精神和时间，一拖再拖终于在今天出来了。我想如果我是以文章为生的话，我肯定被老板催到人都癫！（^^,想念一个把这词挂在嘴边的朋友）

当初我是因为这本书的价格比较便宜（Sorry,我有点贪小便宜），好像很受欢迎（应该都是我这类的人，因为比较“抵买”都围着那摊书的周围），好像很有来头（被媒体强力推荐的那种），好像很有意思（敬上一杯茶，你是一个陌生人；再奉第二杯，你是我们的朋友；第三杯茶，你是我的家人，我将用生命来保护你。) 酱才买的。

这是我看了The Memory Keeper's Daughter后突然想起的一本书。一本被我遗忘的书！

我还记得这是在我吃午饭order三色奶茶的时候才想起的 >.< 回家看看书架，果然原封不动的被遗忘在我的“书海”里。捧起书的那刻，我以为我将会进入Khaled Hosseini （The Kite Runner / A Thousand Splendid Suns 作家）的世界里。谁知翻开来看竟然有照片。原来这本不是老作出来的书，而是一本讲着真实故事的书。

卡车没办法驶进山里的村庄，唯有用人力把建筑材料背进村里。
路途遥远辛苦，可是村民不埋怨，一心一意要赶在冬天前把学校盖好。

看了这本书以后，三杯茶里的主人公葛瑞格·摩顿森（Greg Mortenson）立刻成为了我心里的英雄。有时看到有关阿富汗或巴基斯坦的新闻，都会让我想起这位善人。

故事以摩顿森登山的故事开始，登山迷路和受伤的他被一个贫穷村庄的村民搭救了。在这里他许下了一个承诺，说要为这个村庄盖一所学校给女生和小孩有念书的机会。他并不富裕，但却有着过人的毅力。村民根本就没想到摩顿森果然再次回到他们的村庄，真真切切地为他们盖学校。

这本书，让我留了好几滴眼泪（没有放声大哭那种啦！只是眼湿湿）！我有说过自己是“哭包”吗？我无论是看电视，看报纸，听故事，说话，看书，一旦内容刺激到我的泪腺，眼泪就哗啦哗啦留下来了。在家看戏，如果内容感人，面纸是不中用的，抱着毛巾才是最实际！

故事讲述摩顿森如何实践他的承诺，所经过的难关和波折。从巴基斯坦的一个山间小村庄里盖了他承诺的第一所到五十多所遍布巴基斯坦和阿富汗特别给女生念书的学校，这是何等的好事啊？自911事件以后，人人都惟恐穆斯林恐怖分子。有多少人还会关心善良的穆斯林们呢？当我们懂得用最先进的电脑上网时，有谁会想到在偏远的这些中东国家里还有很多小孩连上学的机会都没有？

可是这个美国人爱上了那偏僻的土地，爱上了那里的人，为这些中东国家出了些毛力，让孩子们有了更好的未来。

真的，这是我今年最喜爱的书。最近逛书局的时候，都看到英文版的三杯茶漂亮地摆在书海里。感谢大卫·奥利弗·瑞林（David Oliver Relin ，一个游历世界的专栏作家），为我们献上了很好的读物。如果你对这本书有兴趣的话，让我知道，我借你看^^

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魔王

2010-07-11T02:33:00.004+08:00

不得了！不得了！

终于看完了久违的《魔王》。

这应该是去年的事，可是不知何因，在PPS里韩版《魔王》变成日版《魔王》。

它在目录里消失以后，我一直耿耿于怀。

其实可以通过其他管道把剩下那四集看完的，可是我家的网络速度好像乌龟那样的慢。

还是算了吧~~或者以后电视会播呢？

每次一看到韩剧就会想起这一部还没看完的戏剧。

现在终于可以看了！感谢弟弟帮我这个忙 ^^

当初会看这套戏都是因为朱智勋这个演员。
我也不知道为什么，总是很喜欢他。
超喜欢他演的李信，发现他演这种“忧郁”，心事重重，有口难开的角色很棒！
别人说某某韩星很帅，我都会说：“还是那个信王子最帅！”

帅吧？哈哈~

最近会补上一句：“还有金贤重，也是很帅！”
是的是的！他真得很帅！而且歌也唱得不错~~
又中毒了 >.<
救命啊！怎么搞到自己好像发帅哥疯的样子 >.<

好了，回到《魔王》这部戏。
我想导演是物色到朱智勋很适合演外表温暖内心冷酷的杀人魔王吴承河，我真的很认同！
他演得很有感觉！！！

哥哥因为学校暴力意外地被国会议员的儿子姜武秀刺死，母亲相继地离世。十六岁的吴承河因此变成了孤儿。他十二年后以律师的姿态开始了复仇行动。

吴承河杀人从不亲自动手，甚至到戏的最后也没有任何证据能将他绳之于法。
看着他一步一步把自己送到自己预设好的地狱门前，我真的很希望他能放下屠刀和女主角徐海英在一起过普通人的生活（她可是拥有心灵占卜术的“超能力”。虽然感觉很“牛”，可是也为这部电视剧增加了些神秘感）。

唉~悲惨的他每皱一个眉，流一滴泪都让人觉得很惋惜。是我中了他的毒才会这样子吗？>.<

有没有很悲？

这部电视剧有时会很闷很慢，可是它不是那种两个男生喜欢一个女生的三角故事，也不是只懂得说爱情，亲情和友情的故事。戏剧讲的是善与恶，残酷的斗争和寻找真相的故事。值得一提的是，我觉得这部戏剧能给青少年带来些正面的信息。

不得了的是它的结局！
我觉得这部戏结束得很凄美。
真的！
我很少会看到这样的结局还会拍手叫好！

不过这样的结局多人都不喜欢。有些形容他为腐味十足的便当结局。我看了也不知道到底是什么意思，应该是不好的评语吧~

也罢也罢，我喜欢！

后来想起最近没看见朱智勋的消息，上网谷歌了一下才发现我这位大帅哥那么不自爱跑去吸毒被关了一段时期。看了就心疼加失望！！！

知道他成功戒毒并乖乖地参军服役2年也感欣慰。
你会反省就好！
希望你2年以后还会有机会在这个圈子继续混下去。
虽然你是个“坏”家伙，可是还是被你那“演技”和样子吃得死死的！！！
我还会继续支持你的！
祝你好运了。

The Memory Keeper's Daughter

2010-07-10T10:22:00.000+08:00

前几个月因为《倚天屠龙记》，几乎每个晚上我都得把我的电脑让给我家人。反正一开始就没看这部连续剧，我也没和他们一起“疯狂”。说得倒奇怪，我最近都没什么看连续剧了！反正晚上不睡觉的时间，没看电视，没上网就看书吧。

那时候我捧在手里的书是去年书市买的 "The Memory Keeper's Daughter"。花了几天看完这本书，感觉马马虎虎。一点儿满足感也没有~

也许故事情节起伏不大,没什么看头。

这本书讲述一个为老婆接生一对龙凤胎的医生预料患了唐氏综合女儿会活不下来，把新生女交给一名护士送走，决定告诉妻子女儿胎死腹中。结果女儿在护士的保护下健康成长。医生因死守谎言一直无法好好面对妻子；妻子为了女儿的死及不解丈夫的行为而改变了自己。两人的婚姻因而陷入无法沟通和谅解的情况下分开了。

这本书的感觉让我觉得很无奈~
期待医生勇敢地坦白一切~
期待两人的婚姻有转机~
期待一个完美的结局~
看了几个单元，发现我的期待已经到无法实现的地步了。
这是一个因为谎言而破碎的家庭。
一个没办法面对缺陷的父亲和丈夫的悲剧。
这个故事很悲惨~~~T_T

看完整本书，感觉真的不是很好。
虽然作者交待了一个可被接受的结局，可是故事有点沉闷。
有点失望呢。。。

虽然如此，看书时很个人的。
千万别因为我说沉闷就判它死刑。
上网看看这本书的评语，你会发现还有很多人行赏它~~

读书潮

2010-07-09T21:43:00.008+08:00

好久没 update 我对去年在书市买回来的书有些什么看法。抱歉抱歉，因为本人很懒惰update部落格，所以看完了好几本书也没和大家分享分享（听起来是不是觉得我的部落格好像有很多followers？wahahaha~~)

好的，去年我买了七本书回家，惭愧的是我看完了五本。剩下的两本我真的没办法看下去！
一本科幻小说《群》和一本看到书皮就知道是很不得了的《秘密》。

《群》是本不错的作品，题材新鲜。可是本小姐就是没办法看下去！

你看看，那密密麻麻的字！我觉得这本小说可以和我弟弟房间里的字典媲美。我老是看了几行字就不知道自己看到那里了，何况要看533页?!我想，要看这本书，一定要非常投入和专心。而且还要很有精神~~

《秘密》这一类型的书应该还不是我杯茶，或许要把它雪藏一段日子才会继续看下去。

三月从普吉岛回来，一本适合织梦年龄的书籍溅起了我和同事的读书潮，大家竟然开始交换书看！加上MP3已经让给弟弟了，回家的路程漫长。反正没位子坐，窗外的景色一天重复两次，不如看看书解解闷。

我把珍藏的漫画和几本我最爱的书和同事换了几本不同种类的书籍。其中包括了亦舒的作品和佛学读物。

说到亦舒，没看过他作品的我对她的印象和岑凯伦一样 -- 织梦年龄的书籍：单纯，纯情~~ 。或许因为是90年代的书，作品不到位，感觉马马虎虎！不过比岑凯伦的作品来的较为成熟。或许这个作者真的不赖，我有几个朋友好像很喜欢她。我想她最近的作品会比我看的那本好。有没有好介绍？

有一天放工的时候，看到这本书的封面很童话，书名也不错，我就拿了曾玲的《大脚丫惊险记》步出公司大门口。

在巴士上一翻开~~~
天啊，是本旅行书刊。里头有曾玲游山玩水的照片。
刚开始有点儿抗拒看这类型的书，感觉上作者只会形容优美的风景和种种不能错过的景色，这样的书对我来说非常乏味。

可是一心决定要用书打发时间，于是我勉为其难继续发掘有什么“惊险”的事。谁知，看了几页觉得这本书还不错。是一本充满活力的冒险记。作者如此大方把自己一箩箩的糗事公布于世，加上题材不是环绕着普通的旅游名胜地，的确为这本书增色不少。翻到最后一页的时候，感觉很不过瘾。怎么这么快就到结尾了呢？

这几天看着这本结缘品《死囚回忆录》，感觉很不错。里头收集了我国几个大监狱里死囚的故事和书信，发现囚犯们其实并不可怕，更惋惜一些觉悟的死囚。迟来的觉悟真叫人遗憾。

上个星期和男朋友看了部好电影以后在书局里绕了一圈，看到有关红酒的书。哈哈哈~~~喝不起红酒，买本书望梅止渴吧。不过最近花太多钱了，还是等书市的时候才买。

我会因为看了一本好书开心好几天，我想这个时候的我（想放假和休息的心情）最需要一本好书了。书市，你什么时候回来呀？

想放假

2010-07-06T00:34:00.003+08:00

累了~
很想放一放假~
好好地轻松一下。

很想花钱~
吃顿好的~
看本好书~
打场保龄球~

很想念以前的冲劲~
那时候的我跑哪儿去了？

工作久了~
对着眼前的工作开始麻了~
突然觉得外面的小贩比我们还幸福~

是我身在福中不知福吗？
这亦是我要的~
也不是我要的~
我爱我的工作~
却失去了原有的动力~

无法突破的感觉~
战战兢兢的感觉~
让每分每秒都觉得很无奈~

这种忙碌并不是我要的~
那种充实的感觉怎么不在了？
是时候放假~
是时候休息~

为了走更长远的路~
我真的要放假了~~
这条路，
我还想继续走下去~
路上还有许多我不能错过的景色~

至少，要先收拾好心情~
以最佳状态~
好好体会这段路程~

我真的真的要放假了。。。

A chance to make a difference.

2010-06-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

That day you said "I've never expected i will need to face this as others"
I knew the answer...
I know i will fail in this....
However, I'm willing to try...
A chance to make a difference.

OUR Future

2010-06-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

Will you talk to me about OUR future?
Will you care about OUR future?
I care....

机械人@生活Update - 六月(June)

2010-06-21T21:35:00.014+08:00

突然间很想念我的部落格。
相隔三个月，我有好多故事想和大家分享。
可是却很懒开电脑~~
在公司天天对着电脑，眼睛不但花了，连放工应该像只龙的时候，也变成了混混沌沌的虫~~
今天难得手指那么巧地按上部落格的网址，看看我能在这里废话多久？！

好，首先要和大家宣布一下~~~
本人过得很好， still in one piece。
还是在老远的八打灵打工，职位confirm了超过三个月，就职了接近一年。（还有谁不知道我卖给Double A 了？）别问我工作如何，一切依然和半年前一样。
忙~~ 分别只有做的人已经变麻木了。

工作的好坏就别再说了，我接受这种生活方式，撑得过公司种种奇怪的政策。
学习，学习。
学习每分每秒的挑战，学习身边的人情世故。
学会爱惜自己。
忙之余要懂得生活~~~

幸好，公司环境不复杂，同事相处融洽。
只要没有无厘头和麻烦复杂的事务，工作的日子不难过。
我并不是当机械人的料，然而工作需要被迫如此。
还年轻，多做几年的机械人又如何？好好累计筹码为未来打拼。
我还是觉得自己的忍耐力超强的。
周期考试，报告，特别任务等~~~就放马过来吧！

不过老实说，每星期一次take home test，真得让我很沮丧！
最讨厌考试了！还要每个星期一次。
让回家的日子都不得安宁~
一群鬼的作风~~~可恨可恨！！！！

我并不是故意不交整个月的考卷，只是回到家后真的没心没力去看它一眼。
原谅我的任性，我会尽量把之前没交的试卷赶上~~
不过可以放过我们吗？
人手不够，时间有限。
公司不但没津贴眼镜，也没有让员工放松心情的福利。
没annual dinner, 不赞助team building 也没有company trip （一毛不拔的政策，果真让人灰心~~）
整群HR的都在干什么？
摆脱别再折磨我们了好吗？
至少，不要给我们Essay题好吗？
真是的，出来工作了还是摆脱不了考试的命运~~~
苦啊。。。。

Erm....由谁要做枪手啊？
以食物为酬劳 ^^

Thank you - My graduation

2010-03-18T21:01:00.011+08:00

It has been 3 months since my last post in blogger.
In 2010 now...

Even if I'm free on Saturday or Sunday, I would rather watch dramas and movies with my computer.... I am lazy and tired to update my blog after work.

2009 was the year I realised one of my parents' dreams.

I wished to write about my graduation in the month of August 2009, but I did not have any inspiration to tell what was my feeling for this whole thing. Even it is a bit late to share, I insist pieces of this moment should stay here before it faded in my memory.

It feels like yesterday was the day I moved into Kolej Keris Mas and stayed with my first friend in UKM. I still remember the moment I stood straight and sweared in emotion during the commencement ceremony.

My life in UKM was always busy with activities. I experienced excited and painful positions in different societies and clubs. It was tiring but I think it is the life a university student should have experienced.

I am glad to be UKM student, glad to have two exclassmates with me in the same university.
Glad to make new friends in hostel, faculty and societies or clubs.
I had wonderful moments with VCD buddies, neighbours in KKM and FPP coursemates.

I overwhelmed with happiness when I was in my graduation gown. I exclaimed "Finally.."
My study life ends here... >.<
I actually felt abit down because I have to say bye bye to my easy study life....
No more long holidays and it is time to earn money and pay debts.
It means -- grow up, being responsible and independent.

"Thank you"
This is the word I wish to tell since my graduation day.
I couldn't find the best way to express my appreciation to you who influenced and supported me during my years in university.

Thanks to my parents and family who will always be with me no matter what.
Thanks to my dad who always give me priceless advices whenever I need.
Thanks to my mum who always remembers, misses and cares about me.
Thanks for the soup and special dinner.
Thanks to my special one who always be with me like my family.
Thanks to my cousin who always help me and encourage me when I am down and confuse with certain situation.
Thanks for helping me to accomplish some of the assignment.
Thanks to my aunt who encourage me and motivated me.
Thanks for treating me dinners, sending me biscuits and snacks.
Thanks to my aunt and the family letting me to join a wonderful trip in Krabi.
Thanks to lecturers who gave us wonderful projects and learning opportunities.
Thanks to colleagues whom I worked with during my internship.
Thanks to my friends who never forget and care about me even I am too busy to hang out with them.
Thanks to my coursemates for many reasons...
Thanks to my VCD friends who shared knowledge and time for unforgetable moments.
Thanks to Meiyin for her patience and understanding to live with a bad temper person.
Thanks to one special friend for his help when I was working hard in Form Six and before entering university.

Thank you very much.
My life in UKM was great, thanks to be a part of this.
I may not be able to find the perfect word to describe my gratitude.
I do, sincerely to thank you for making me a better and happy person. ^^

塞车怨气

2009-12-01T23:19:00.007+08:00

最讨厌放工的时候下雨。

下雨天的联邦大道和前往 The Mines 的新街场大道是最让人头痛的。

最气人的就是付了钱还是要塞车。

倾盆大雨的时候，大道还会淹水。

最讨厌联邦大道一个接一个的路口，

车流量逐渐增加让整条大道挤个水泄不通不在话下。

最气人的是那些“完美”的分叉路设计，

要车子从最左边驶到最右边入道；

出路口的时候从最右边驶到最左边。

就这样一连串的 X 字驾法穿插在本来顺畅无阻的道路上，

真得很考验人的耐力！

我想上班和放工时间出现在这大道上的车主，

大部分都是知书达理的蓝白领人士。

可是很多人就在这个时候变成了流氓。

The Mines 那儿建了几座大桥虽然让那里的交通改善了一点，

可是狭窄的道路和复杂的道路设计也一样让驾车人士抓狂。

本来想奉公守法，可是有许多不耐烦的司机会像小孩子那样左穿右插，甚至连出示灯也不会用。

你赶时间，人家也是赶时间！

人家辛辛苦苦地排队，你就绕道插位，还要一副 “你让不让我过？你不让我过，我偏要过！“的死样。

不是你想出来我就会让你，至少让我觉得你还有少少的Manners, 我让你过，我还会死死地让你过的！

那些巴士司机也很让人生气，明明巴士站有个空位让巴士停放接客，他们偏偏要停在路中间阻交通。

摩托车也一样！

今天差一点就有个摩托司机躺在咱们车轮下，把昏昏欲睡的我吓个半死。

还好老豆驾车是出名地慢，来得及刹车才没把滑倒的摩托骑士 XX ~

哎，好心你们骑摩托的先生小姐们。

下雨天就不要冒雨骑车，更不要大摇大摆地与流氓并行。

拜托你们使用紧急车道，第二到第三条大道是给四个轮以上的车用的。

请你们下雨的时候也要分外小心，

路很滑很容易出意外（就好像今天遇到的可怜骑士一样）。

你的生命很宝贵的。

即使你要寻死，也拜托你离我远一点。

我不想那么倒霉！

而且很多人像我们一样都得靠车子揾食的！！！！

阿弥驼佛，不要再让我遇到这种事了！

结婚

2009-11-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

十月十日, 表姐嫁人了。身为表妹的我当然替她高兴，可是感觉很奇怪！
我觉得新娘和新郎都好年轻噢~
仔细想想，虽然比我理想的结婚岁数有差，但是表姐也到适婚年龄了。
明年的某月某日，和我同龄的好朋友也要嫁人了。表姐结婚有什么好奇怪的呢？

我想是因为大家从小玩到大，而且年级仅仅相差一年的关系。才刚毕业的我压根儿都没想过结婚，比我年长一岁的表姐却结婚了。我真得很好奇，两个情侣是怎么做出结婚的决定。

有人说，当其中一方想要生孩子的时候，就是两人步入婚姻的时候了。
这是为了成家立室。

也有人认为结婚只是给予交往多年的女友一个交待。
责任还是成全，这是男人认为需要为女人付出的一步。

又或者当你什么都不缺，只差婚姻才算美满，你是不是会想到结婚呢？
有些人过了适婚年龄，由于受到家人的压力而且友人个个都结婚了，唯独自己仍旧单身而导致心理不平衡，就这样因为结婚而结婚。

我会很浪漫的认同这是为彼此成为终身伴侣的承诺。我们会互相扶持，彼此分享欢喜，分担烦恼，不离不弃一直到老。

我希望婚礼中的“我愿意”，不是冲动也不是被迫，那是打从心里说出来的真心话。
我愿意为你的人生负责。
我愿意与你白头偕老。

我不知道每个人是不是都有这样的计划，大概自己会在什么时候结婚，什么时候生孩子……
说我老土也好，思想较为传统的我可真的有想过！

我认为老天爷对女生真的很不公平，过了二十就不再青春，年迈三十生孩子会被扣上高龄产妇的名号~

还年轻的我们还有多少岁月能蹉跎？

顶多三五年吧……

所以我想在二十八至三十岁间把自己给嫁了，三十至三十五岁间把想生的孩子都生了，然后好好地当个好女儿，好妻子，好母亲和好姐姐一直到老。

唉~
老实说，对人生这样的安排，我会害怕~
事与愿违。
我看过交往多年的情侣到了适婚年龄因为种种原因而分手，结果彼此曾经所组织的梦一瞬间破灭了。
我也看过好好的一头家因没好好地经营粉碎了。
这一切都让我觉得可惜和心痛。
婚姻这东西不简单，我还没本事招架。

现在的我太年轻了，我还不想扛身为人媳，为人母的责任。

可是我希望到那个时候，我不会和“浪费”以及种种可惜的原因拉上关系。

当然，我希望已经结婚了的亲戚朋友，还有终于要注册的好友。我祝你们婚姻幸福~
未婚的你，也祝你早日想通准备步入爱情坟墓，开始幸福的人生（很欠揍）。
年轻的我，好好享受所谓的青春吧~

Ninja Assassin

2009-11-27T22:33:00.006+08:00

Ninja...

The first ninja i know is Ninja Turtle... Erm... I guess I was too young to watch ninja turtle, i barely remember the story and the characters of ninja turtles. Things i remember about the green cretures were the shells and the eye bands... What do they do, erm.... I don't know...

Then, I know Ninja from the kids animation of 忍者乱太郎 (sorry, dunno what they call in English....) This is a cute and funny animation about life of young ninjas in their Ninja school... However, I really can't remember the detail stories in this animation.

Recently, I am addicted with Naruto... One of the hot japanese comic series. I do not read the comic but watch the animation. Unbelievable, I like this very much.

Today, my dear and I went to Jusco for the movie - Ninja Assassin starred by Rain, the Pop star of Korea.

Rain, what a charming man in Korea. I know this pop star from a korean drama - Full House, it is a sweet drama and I think Rain is cute, but not handsome...

I know he is a good singer and dancer, I watched his MTV, he is HOT!!!!! His concert in Malaysia was a legend to me in terms of the price of concert ticket. Are you crazy? Paying RM1000++ for a concert!!!! Well, perhaps I have not been in any concert so far, i don't know what is so special to be in a live concert. But, RM1000++ is an enormous money to me.

Okay, back to Ninja Assassin. Let's forget about the story / plot, but concentrate on their movements and cuts. Wooooo, it is too ghastly to look at, but is bloody and bloody good in visual effect!!!!

Look at Rain's body... Especially his ab...

Even I said he is not handsome, his muscles and abdomen is really nice!!!

It is really really good if you like bloody action movies! Just realised, Ninja life in Naruto is so peaceful compare to this. I can't imagine life of real Ninjas which existed in the history. Cruel~

SPM

2009-11-27T12:09:00.003+08:00

My brother is in the war of SPM.
For the first time in my life, I see my brother involves in STUDY GROUP which is quite impossible to happen to him.
Glad to see them putting effort in their examination.
Even though they were noisy and had disturbed me from my sweet dreams, I wish they enjoyed the discussion / revision and learn from it.

It reminds me of my study time.
Ya, SPM...
I was sick during examination...
I think, i was too tired and feeling stress for my SPM test...

I still remember, we had discussion and revision session for Add Math at Ken's house. Ken's mother was cooking soup, the smell was good...
We were doing add math exercises... chatting...
It was great...

Does it help?
Yes, it helps sometimes.
When you were facing problems to answer some questions, friends around you will help to understand, we work together and exchange opinions and tips...

I like last minute discussion / revision with fellow friends sometimes, not only it could help us to improve our understanding on the subject, but also help to ease our feelings from "depression" during exam season.

All the best to you, my dear brother and your fellow friends.

官老爷，你们都做什么？

2009-11-17T21:17:00.008+08:00

我很好奇官老爷们时常都做什么？

大家都好像很忙的样子~

忙着回馈社会的民生大计，为民请命？不见得咯？有吗？

还是忙着出席/搞讲座？为名气？

兼职捧大脚？为利益？

参与“反对”派对，与“反对”大计同生共死？为大局为重？

对这个国家的政治，从以前毫无看头到现在稍微有起色的民主权力制衡的状况来看的确生色不少。可是有时候从政客口中听到滑稽和天真的笑话，我突然会想知道为什么我国的政客脸皮那么厚。而且还要将人人知道的事儿说成另一回事，好像想让全世界都知道他在睁眼说瞎话。

不知从什么时候开始，我会看看报纸突然自言自语地碎碎念

最近看到/听到那丢脸到家的党争，我都会特别反感。当初人民投给你们那一票难道是让你们这班人戏剧般的那样搞来搞去，浪费时间和资源的吗？本来对政治已经很冷感的我简直是灰心到底。

好，或许你们有充足的时间争来争去，还有时间为民着想好好办事。可是我真的忍无可忍了！

每次经过前往 Kuchai Lama 的 Sungai Besi 大道，我都会念“猪脑”两个字。原谅我越来越粗俗~

沿着Sungai Besi 大道是住宅区，那里的居民应该很庆幸有个Ampang Line LRT Station 在家附近。 (本小姐要从家里到那里需要十五分钟车程！）对学生来说是好事，对工作人士来说也是件大好事。可是大家有没有发现住宅区是在左边；LRT Station在右边，中间隔了六条大道。姑且不计较 LRT Station 的所在地方是不是恰当，本人是觉得还可以。

可是我不能接受 Sungai Besi 大道旁插了几支 No Pedestrian 的指示牌却没有行人天桥通往隔壁的小镇。请问住在 Sungai Besi 大道边的居民们要怎样去 Sungai Besi 巴刹或那LRT Station呢？官老爷们是不是要指望没有汽车和机车的老老少少天天搭的士去那不需一分钟就到的小镇吗？（顺便一提，那里是没有巴士能载这一带的居民直接到车站的，即使有，有多少个人愿意等？）

所以，每天我们都会看到以下的情形：

不分男女老少的路人等着适当的时候过马路。每当没车或迎来的车子放慢速度以后，他们会像箭一样地越过这几条大马路。

摩托骑士也不例外。大家一逮到适当的时间就会集体地冲到 U Turn 路口（这的确是摩托骑士的错误。他们其实可以在不远的1公里处 U Turn ~ 不过这引人犯罪的 U Turn 设计确实让没有耐心又不守交通规则的大马摩托骑这样过马路。）

每次看到路人像拼了命地跑过马路，我真得很好奇那里的人民没要求多建一座行人天桥吗？还是已经向有关人士请愿过了但因为工程太小，“料”不够丰厚因此多多借口久久不落实？

各位，因为这条没有行人天桥的大道（有座离途中地点1公里处的行人天桥，可是我想那是不可能有人会为了那唯一的行人天桥愿意多走一公里的路。），居民要冒着生命危险越过马路，还要绕着大道多走大约0.6公里的路方能到达 Sungai Besi LRT Station 或新街场镇。吃人民米饭的官爷们？你们醒了吗？这问题已经不是近一两年的事，本小姐还在念中学的时候就已经是这样了。是不是要搞出人命来的时候你们才会觉悟？

你们都在干什么的？

真希望有个像Namewee这样的老兄在KL可以铲一铲这班垃圾。我对本地政府还有那些只懂得闹事的政客真的是绝望到底~ 真想丢一句*%#·*￥·...

2012

2009-11-16T21:41:00.010+08:00

I still remember when I was in secondary school, my friends and I failed to buy movie tickets for the disaster film - The Day After Tomorrow. I forgot how many times we had tried until we finally bought the very tickets at Mid Valley. We shouted " Finally" and felt really really happy like children who got their candy.

If you watch The Day After Tomorrow, you should know it was an icy movie which depicts the extreme weather events that usher in a new Ice Age. We felt really cold from cheeks to toes even we were not in the icy world like the movie. It was a great movie, I still remember the scenes of flood, snow, frozen people, buildings and ugly dogs... >.<

This year, i found 2012 is even more excited and interesting than the previous ones. It surprised me when i saw the earth is breaking from piece to pieces, mountains are collapsing, kilometers height of tsunami...etc. It was a WOW to me...

I think i opened my mouth when i saw these incredible scenes. Imagine, the whole Penang Island is collapsing, Genting highland disappears, KL is a mess where high buildings are falling, earth apart and there is a deep valley that you could ever imagine appears under your feet all in sudden.

The graphic quite emphasizes on huge pieces rather than tiny human beings or animals. For examples, the falling buildings, breaking earth, collapsing mountains, huge waves of tsunami and volcanic outbreaks. These were the incredible works which excited me. As for tiny human beings and animals, well... it was okay for me. I would prefer and enjoy the scenes of Transformer that show more details on human reaction on the battle outbreaks.

Hmm... I actually underestimated the movie's box office record. I knew it could be a hot hot cake, but it was unexpectedly HOT for me. I tried to reserve tickets from GSC website , and the website had unable the online booking service. I even can imagine my movie plan for the week will be called off...

Luckily, my dear reserved the tickets on Wednesday morning. Though it was the first day to reserve Saturday movie tickets, he only managed to reserve tickets in mornig session about 11am. Even I went to Berjaya Time Square to collect tickets on Friday about 5pm, 2012 movie tickets for the day were all sold out. No wonder the queue was so short...

That was a really bad news for people who did not manage to buy or book the movie tickets.... (Just like what my friends and I experienced for film of The Day After Tomorrow)

Oh, ya...

It was great to watch movie with you ^^

Love to have gathering with coursemates, lunch or movies... it makes me happy.

Hope we'll meet again very soon...

Time vs Energy

2009-11-11T00:54:00.004+08:00

It has been a month since my last post in blogspot.
Working life is busy like bees...
Even the trend in office now is facebook + working, i did not have the chance logging in to my facebook during working hours.

Perhaps, i don't want to because my boss is sitting right behind me.
So, i have to Kaka...

Well, I spend average one and a half hour travelling from office to my sweet home every day.
Tired...
I would rather spend my night with TV or BED after a long day working and travelling...
Facebook, blog and blogshop...
no time to update...
I wish to update, I love to share...
But, I'm tired and need rest and relax!!!!!!!!
However, I at least check my yahoo mailbox every night ^^ (My hotmail is full of emails, almost 800 unread messages... )

I think I will make time for my blog, my friends, my family and my life...
I do not want to be a friend which you would think is 无事不登三宝殿 ( Ones never go to a Buddhist temple for nothing ), I just lazy...
I miss my friends...

I need to be with my family, more time with my family...
More conversation and caring...
I have been impatient to my mum lately...
I don't know why...
But i feel bad after that for my bad attitute and responses...
I should behave and control my temper...
My mum is the sweetest aunty you could ever find, I love her but for some reasons, I always against her for what she says and does...
In fact, I think I'm treating my mum like my own child...
Haha.. anyway, I love you mummy

As for my brother...
He is sitting SPM in this November...
Indeed, I'm worried...
He always says he is doing alright in his studies...
Well, it has been a year since my last time reading his report card...
I think he is not doing good...
I'm sorry if I'm wrong...
Everytime I see his result, I will blame myself for not being a good sister who should always care for her brother's studies like mothers do for their children.
It is too late if we talk about helping him to do well in SPM...

I guess, I should pay more attention to my little brother.
I know my brother pretty well, he is a smart boy, just LAZY...
What should I do now?
Perhaps to think about his next school, work together with him to figure out the best course that suits him.

Ya, I need time... Need more energy... Need to be healthy and happy...

Planet 51

2009-11-07T12:53:00.001+08:00

We usually relate unidentified flying object (UFO) to aliens. They are neither humans nor animals in our planet. We call them alien, because we believe they are creatures from another world. (Sometimes we call people alien too, because we find their behaviour are strange and unacceptable commonly.)

Back to the topic, Planet 51... a 3D animation which is produced by my friend's parent company. Thanks for the invitation, we were so lucky to watch the movie before it is shown in theater officially in Malaysia and other countries. Yeah, it was the first show of Planet 51!!! Did I tell you there was no subtitle at all? Haha.. it was quite difficult for me to understand sometimes....

This time, the astronaut from earth - Charles "Chuck" Baker became the alien in Planet 51 which is inhabited by little green people. His visit frightened the citizens and cause the goverment of the planet to hunt the Aliens. Though the story goes no surprise, seeing human becomes Alien is a novelty and interesting. It is a cute and ceative work.

Visit www.liupohkey.blogspot.com for Planet 51 trailer.

I enjoy meeting old friends. We chat about our work, our boring life, share news to each other... We went for lunch before the movie at Pavillion. Food was not good but it was alright, I met my friends, we had a great day.

Thanks for the movie and the door gift. Even it was not really useful to me, I guess kids will like it ^^(Date: 07 Nov 2009)

最后的演讲

2009-09-14T00:37:00.005+08:00

续《最后十二堂课》，这是另一部让我感动的作品。我似乎很喜欢看别人的遗作，了解别人的故事和想法。

我不会给这本书打满分，不过4.5 分可以充分地表示我对这本书的看法。作者兰迪，鲍许 Randy Pausch 是个大学教授，也被《时代》杂志评为2008年100大影响人物。这本书对患了胰腺癌的兰迪教授来说意义深远。不仅为了与大众分享他的人生哲学，更是为了他幼小的孩子。这是他留给孩子其中最好的礼物，因为这本书浓缩了他要教导孩子们的人生道理。

兰迪教授是个超级乐观的人，即使知道自己得了末期癌症，他很积极的生活渡过他仅有的日子。他主张实现自己的童年梦想，虽然听起来好像很不实在。可是他的确实现了他的童年梦想，那些你觉得不可能轻易发生的事，他做到了。不仅是他，他一个抱着童年梦想的学生也如愿以偿。

或许你会觉得他们是人群里的幸运儿，由于得到上天的眷顾让他门有实现梦想的机会。我不否认机遇是可遇不可求，梦想能否实现得靠自己的运气。或许这番话要告诉有幸与“机遇“碰面的人，如果你碰见它了，不要让它擦肩而过，把握它，成就它！即使失败，至少你努力过了。别到错过了才后悔当初为什么什么都没做。

兰迪教授也是个幽默的人，别以为这本书光说些沉重的人生道理，其实有些故事会让你发笑。最让人感动的莫过于他给家人写的寄语/遗言。他是多么的不情愿离开他的家人，可是他没办法改变一切，唯有接受。

兰迪教授说他不会感谢癌症给他对生命有新的启发和更深的了解，可是能够预知自己的死期他感到感恩。因为这样让他有足够的时间为家人的未来做好准备，让他回大学做他的最后演讲，充分的和家人度过每一天。这番话让我印象深刻，人终究会离开人世，预知自己的死期或许也是种福气。至少在你仅有的日子里，你还能为自己还有最爱的人做些什么，那么当离开的时候也比较平静。

这本书附送了兰迪教授在卡耐基. 梅隆大学最后的演讲。我还没开来看，可是我觉得一定很棒。不信？谷歌一下《最后的演讲》，Randy Pausch 或 The Last Lecture，你就会知道。

http://www.thelastlecture.com/

First lesson in work

2009-09-11T14:37:00.003+08:00

It has been almost a month since I worked in Double A marketing office in Petaling Jaya. What do you think a distance of 23km from my house to office?
It takes about 30 minutes driving time, WITHOUT JAM.
Very far? Far? Okay?

I think it is very far because I need to take 3 different types of public transport (Ampang Line, Kelana Line, Rapid KL/Metrobus) to get to my "far away" office. (Did I tell you I also need my dad to send and pick me up at Sungai Besi Ampang Line station? Thank you daddy who supports me without complaints.) It is tiring and time consuming to travel for almost 1 and a half hour twice a day, but I am pleased to be a part of Double A (DA) family.

My job is to carry out mothly promotions and prepare following months proposals. This is one of the reasons why I am willing to work in PJ even it is very far from my place. So far, I like my job!

I learnt alot within these 4 weeks, but there is still a long way to go. Everyone in the office is nice. All the things you need to do is ASK when you have questions or need helps, they are willing to help.

For these four weeks, I recognize that I am seriously lack of self confidence to question other's decisions. If there is any negative consequences happened, it will be my fault because I did not question and solely follow the instructions when I felt something is wrong.

Even it is our responsibility to do what is instructed by superiors related to work, we need to work smart to avoid problems. Even experienced people make mistakes, we should not set aside our intuition and logic, follow instructions blindly. Ask and clear the mist of peculiar decisions and plans before execution is very important. It is our responsibility to solve problems and improve defective plans. We are not working machines or instruction followers, we were taught to solve problems and make good results.

Therefore, it is my first assignment to improve myself. I need to learn and to be critical. Well, the things i can do now is to amend any faulty situations it may occur and always be alert to any instructions which come to me. Question when it sounds weird and think thoroughly.

My job is accountable not only to myself, but also colleagues and people I work together.
My career is on me.
I need to be better!

If I am a man...

2009-09-11T00:11:00.004+08:00

This is how I look if I become a man.

You may also view this in Youtube or rockstarmyself.com

The inventor of Perfect Teeth

2009-09-10T22:58:00.005+08:00

My cousin show me his "video". It was very funny ^^

I made this for my brother. Haha.. Really funny!

Or visit youtube or rockstarmyself.com

当我老了

2009-09-10T20:04:00.005+08:00

这是我弟不知在哪里找到的文章，觉得很棒。

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当我老了，
不再是原来的我。
请理解我，对我有一点耐心。

当我把菜汤洒到自己的衣服上时，
当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，
请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。

当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，
请耐心地听我说，
不要打断我。
你小的时候，
我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，
直到你进入梦想。

当我需要你帮我洗澡时，
请不要责备我。
还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？

当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，
请不要嘲笑我。
想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个［为什么］。

当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时，
请伸出你年轻有力的手腕扶我。
就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。

当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，
请给我一些时间让我回想。
其实对我来说，
谈论什么并不重要只要你能在一旁听我说，
我就很满足。

当你看着老去的我，
请不要悲伤。
理解我，支持我，
就像你刚开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。

当初我引导你走上人生的路，
如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心，
我会抱以感激的微笑，
这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。

My sister's Keeper

2009-09-07T00:52:00.007+08:00

Finally, I finished reading the novel "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult. I would say it is a story that triggers your sympathy, your emotion and your imagination. I like the way the author tells story which involves every main characters' standpoints and histories.

Anna, the main character of the story who filed a lawsuit against her parents to claim her right to her own body which had undergone a numbers of surgeries for the sake of her sick sister - Kate. Anna had donated her umbilical cord blood since she was born, bone marrow, granulocytes, lymphocyte when Kate needed. Now, they need one of her kidney.

At first, you may say why not giving it out for your beloved one? Because if you don't, he or she may die. Is Anna making a selfish decision for not giving her kidney to her sister? Is it because she can't take it any more to be her sister's perfect donor for another thirteen years or more? Well, it is complicated.

As Anna's parents, do they feel sorry to use her little daughter's tissues and organs to save the other dying daughter? Do they feel right to user Anna, to bring her to this world just to save the other child they love? They are selfish, but they are parents with dying kid. They just can't give up to save Kate even there is tiniest chance to keep her alive.

After all, you wonder how the story continues if Anna did not win the lawsuit? What if she won?
Well, I would say the ending is beautiful though it is not perfect like Cinderella or Snow White with the ending sounds "they live happily ever". You may not like the ending like this, but it happens.
Things happen like this in reality.
Unexpectedly and irony.
Disappear before you knew.
Grief when you feel the pain of lost.

Although the novel is rich with medical terms and prefessional law language that could sometimes lay you alot of question marks above your head, it is good to read for extra knowledge. (I thought service dogs are only for blinds. I think most of us do as the author points it out in her novel that everyone hears of service dogs, they think of blinds. Actually, there are seizure service dogs which could sense the upcoming seizure before a human. Amazing...)

How good is the book?
I will rate it at 3.5 of 5.
The story is about decisions related to moral dilemmas. There isn't always yes or no, right or wrong. It is a grey zon that every decision and move that one takes make sense. It is great to study their psycho maps. If you a lazy reader, may be look for its motion picture. I think it gives you better pictures of the story.

期待，没了？

2009-08-30T23:31:00.004+08:00

寂寞~
我不想说我感到寂寞，因为我似乎不具备那条件。
可是那种感觉似乎占有了我整个人。
我不想说我讨厌，可是我很累，很厌倦~

想太多太多了~
或许什么事都没发生，只是自己再闹情绪~
我只是个傻瓜~
自寻烦恼的笨蛋~

很多事情我已经很懒惰去解释，
很懒惰去修补，
很懒惰去维持~

我不想退步，
更不想原地踏步，
我很累，
可是我还想坚持。

我好奇又没有人察觉危机的降临，
我好奇又没有人和我一样，
都累了。

等待，
把期待吞噬了。
我已经不想寄望，不想期待~
我害怕失望。

我开始怀疑，
那份灼热的心是否还在？
我不知道那是为自己找的籍口，还是它真的存在？
那天，我感受到它如往常一样那么的坚定。
它还在！
我只是懊恼，
为什么它的出现总是要那么地让人摸不透。
坦白说，
我不太喜欢这一套~
我不喜欢猜谜。

很多人像看戏一样，
期待看自己预料的结局什么时候会发生。
我不怕~
我知道，
那里有支持我的人。

要对自己好一点，
不要去在意，
不要去劳心。
……

不在意，不劳心……
这是我对灰心和绝望的体现。
对很多的事情我可以不在意，不劳心。
可是这件事我可不行。
因为我还很在乎~

或许明天的早晨，
心情会好一些。
可是问题仍然存在。
不知哪一天又那一夜，这种感觉又会找上门来。

问题是什么？
……
或许是……
我没有了期待~
我害怕，连等待都丢了~

海外华文书市

2009-08-27T00:45:00.005+08:00

终于等到今天了！

我和表哥约好了放工后在KLCC会面一起去书市。

由于是周日，傍晚时分又下大雨，所以展览厅里没有人山人海，挤得水泄不通。

这是我第二次来书市。

去年因为“经济”不景气，所以错过了。

今年虽然也是“经济”不景气，可是我拚了！

我要将去年的书也买回来！！！

在小册子里看中的书都买了，唯独一些之前在书局里看过的书没找到。

看来我要的《奇迹》要回去大众书局买了。

看着今天的收获真的爽到不得了！

第一次买书买得那么过瘾。

果然预算多，做事特别容易~

可是好像买得不够……，不知道够不够看到明年为止？

哈哈，应该可以。

上班族应该没什么美国时间 ^^

看！！！

终于买下了之前想要买的 "The Memory Keeper's Daughter"。

久违了~

接下来就是两个星期前差一点提早把它带回家的 "My Sister's Keeper".

真的憋了很久！

还有朋友推荐的《秘密》，《群》，爱美书《裸妆圣经》，看起来好像很好看的《三杯茶》和《最后的演讲》。

又是“熬”书的季节了。

I found my very first job

2009-08-25T15:40:00.004+08:00

Dream Job?
Do you have dream jobs?
I’m not sure how to define a dream job. If it is something matches my preference, then it should be a job that I love to do, excellent paid, flexible time, on job satisfaction, rooms to grow and utilize my energy and talents…
Sales might be the most suitable position which matches all the mentioned description, but it just doesn’t ring me well.

I like advertisement!
I like to observe the meaning and the ideas behind the story.
Creativity… it brings a dead thing to life, making it interesting.

When I was a part time tutor in a tuition center which was near to my house, I was asked to design and decorate the notice boards, leaflets, invitation cards etc. Divisions such as promotion, publicity and marketing were always my first choice to sign up in any clubs or societies during my university time. I think, my destination will be marketing communication.

After completing my last paper, I started my job hunting covered fields of marketing, advertising, public relations and event management. It was sad to say, it is always hard to get the dream job. Positions for marketing communication are really limited in the job market, especially for fresh grads. Moreover, locations are normally very far from my place.
My enthusiasm to advertising vanished…
It is time to be realistic, back to your profession – marketing.

After three months wandering at the edge of the real working world. I’m glad that I made a right decision, thankful to all the opportunities which came to me.

Sometimes, we confuse, lost, feeling helpless.
We hate the uncertainty and situations which are way too far from our expectation.
Sometimes, we really need to take our chance for greater opportunities, to give up on something for better outcomes.

Finally, I would say I eventually got the “dream job” which matches my preference and my background.

I think this is it.
The first company I work for my life.
Glad to be a part of the family.
All the best to me >.<
Ganbateh!

The 6th Double A Multi National Getting Seminar - Part 2

2009-08-24T22:57:00.003+08:00

There were 46 candidates from different countries participated in the seminar such as Korea, Hong Kong, India, Pakistan, Bangladesh, China – Guangzhou, Thailand and Malaysia. The two days Double A Multi National Getting Seminar was all about discussions, cooperation and evaluations.

First group of friends (from GuangZhou) we made in the Getting Seminar.

Believe me, there were a lot of evaluations.
We needed to evaluate and review what we learnt from games and discussions.
We needed to evaluate every session, every program, and every candidate we worked together.

For the first time, I visited a paper plant based in Thailand which is near to Tawaravadee Resort Hotel. I was told that Advance Agro paper plant inclusive of plantation areas is as wide as Subang. Very big… /shock
But we only visited 3 - 4 stations within the plant.
Luckily we had friends from China who specialize in paper making, they explained us paper production process while we were visiting the hot and noisy pulp mill.

The Energy Plant.

The Paper Farmed Trees.

Group photos in the mill.

I think the seminar was great, because we learnt a lot and met a lot of people around the world. I love their outdoor activities, I think it were awesome because it was a golden chance for us to know more about our friends and to work together with our team members. Team work was great, even though we lost the games sometimes. What I appreciate the most was the moments when we shared the same missions and work it out together. The spirit we projected, encouragement and advices we gave to each other was so beautiful. The day before we were strangers; today we worked together with trust even we barely know each other.

Games group - Mercury. Guys, you are the best! Awesome!

I was impressed that every candidate gave their best to contribute and to give their points of view in every discussion. Everyone was active to give opinions and spoke out. This is really a different situation from some assignment discussions I had in university (sad to say, some group members prefer to keep quiet and let other group members to decide what to do and how to do. Hence, pick the right group members for assignment. Otherwise, do not expect the real DISCUSSION to happen!).

The discussion group for games evaluation.

Photo session after the first day seminar - outside of our rooms. ^^

All Lenglui from Malaysia. Thanks Daniel, who took this picture for us ^^

We called for room service. Thanks Yuri for this fantastic supper ^^ Five of us had a wonderful night. Pillow talks til forgot / didn't want to do our assignment.

I like the last discussion we had on our last day seminar. It was a 6 months action plan for Double A proposal. We were asked to present our ideas according to our profession for Double A within a limited budget. Every candidate took turns to present their ideas individually. I regret that I did not focus on promoting Double A paper but its stationeries and house brand products. Well, at least I did it and shared my ideas with one of the international division CEO and Double A experienced mentors. It was great when the mentors challenged your idea by asking a lot of why, what, how. This was an opportunity for us to discover our limitation and the shortcomings. GREAT!!!!

The final discussion group with our mentors ^^

The seminar ended joyfully.
It was a fruitful trip for all of us.
We were not only had the chance to know friends from other countries but also to learn from each other. The trip opened up my eyes to know how people from different background see things differently, and how they fought and present themselves.

Joy, a cheerful person who brang us to Thailand ^^

New friend from Hong Kong - Yannie. Do we look alike? Haha..

A special note for my Malaysian friends:
I am thankful that I had the chance to join the trip with 4 of you. We were not good friends and seldom hang out during our university time, but I am so glad that I get to know you better through this seminar. I enjoyed every moment we shared together in Thailand. Friends, wish all the best to you. I’m looking forward to our next gathering or a trip. Keep in touch ya! Cheers /yeah

The 6th Double A Multi National Getting Seminar - Part 1

2009-08-15T19:04:00.006+08:00

After resigning from Marcus Evans as marketing research executive, I wondered where should I start over my career. Should I say it was fortuitously that I received a recruitment email from Double A International Network (Malaysia) for a open position of Marketing Execiutive based in Petaling Jaya? I think it was.

The job description rang me very well. Then, I was arranged for an interview at the PJ office. The interview went well, but they couldn't make hiring decision because all candidates who were interested to the vacancy needed to attend for a seminar in Chachoengsao, Thailand. Eventhough we have the chance to attend the seminar, our employment with the company is subject to our performance during the seminar.

At first, I was so sad to hear that because my parents seem to be objecting me from going out station alone. This is because, I was asked to decline a job from a company which require me to have business trips. Maybe you will think that my parents are over protecting me, but I think it is reasonable.

Besides, I was sad about the date because the seminar would be started from 27th July 2009, which was the last day of my Krabi trip with family. How could I attend the seminar while I needed to catch the flight to KL from Krabi, and from KL to Bangkok at almost the same time? Well, the only solution is to fly from Krabi to Bangkok. Erm... The same problem... I need to travel alone.... My parents would be damn worried....

I wanted to join the seminar for three reasons:
1. Career opportunity for this fantastic marketing position that I highly interested in.
2. Holidays - Very obvious loh... Everything is sponsorred, why not take this opportunity to see Thailand?
3. A golden chance to travel alone
/wahaha

I am not scare of travelling alone, I am an adventurous person. I love challenges and new things ^^ But, I do not want my family to worry me. Thus, I had tried pretty hard to convince them not to worry me and promised to text them in Thailand. Eventually, I had my parents' approval ^^ When they knew my coursemates would be going together, they relieved.

I flied alone from Krabi to Bangkok on 27th July 2009. Though it was quite sad to see family leaving to KL at Krabi Airport without me, my mood recovered after boarding domestic flight. In fact, I felt very excited by doing everything on my own. (I'm really a protected child T_T)

About an hour later, I arrived at Bangkok airport. Wow... Suvarnabhumi Airport is really really big... Our plane was like searching parking at Mid Valley, we were on the drive way for quite a long time, passing by a numbers of huge birds and buildings. Finally, the plane stopped, but I did not see any corridors connected to airport buildings. In fact, the building was quite far from our plane. Then, I saw Air Asia buses.

Ooooh, we need to take buses to get to the airport buildings ^^

Waiting for my luggage to appear from this loader...

Finally, i met the person incharge - Joy and my dear friends at the exit after collecting my luggage. Surprisingly, all Malaysian who joined for this seminar were from the same university and same faculty. ^^ Semua ga gi lang...

Chachoengsao is about 120km from Bangkok, Joy led us to a van and started off to Tawaravadee Resort Hotel (Double A property). The journey was long and exhausted. We had a long day... My flight was delayed and I was having minor food poisoning >.<

After our buffet dinner at the resort cafe, five of us decided to go to the night market outside of the hotel. When we reached to the front door of the lobby, we realised it was quite far for us to walk to the night market. Luckily, we had help from a lovely van driver to send us out to the night market (we should give him some tips!!!)

The night market has no differences with our pasar malam, we did not buy anything but 6 bottles of mineral water at Tesco. The Tesco is small like a grocery shop, we thought Tesco should be like supermarkets in Malaysia. Quite disappointed. >.<

Then, we visited 7-Eleven (Similar to Watson in Malaysia, they have variety of merchandise) to buy play cards. It was quite difficult to communicate with Thai in English, we spent a few minutes to explain what we wanted in simple English and non-verbal language. It was funny when the lady showed us pins that she believed was the thing we wanted. Eventually, she gave us the right thing after showing her the poker card game in handphone. ^^ Fun...

Look familiar? Our Proton Persona was exhibited in the Motor Show!!!

Before going back to hotel, we had photo shooting session at the main entrance of Tawaravadee Resort Hotel. We then bumped into a golf cart which was sending two foreigners out from the hotel to the main road. Haha... We were so lucky to tumpang golf cart back to our hotel./wahaha

See? Everyone was so happy ^^ Hehe /blush

Well, we did not play any games that night but chatted til 12am or 1am. Two friends of us went for massage, it was only 340 Baht for 2 hours = RM34. Can you find this for me in Malaysia? So sayang, I didn't try that >.<

Anyway, I slept well that night. No nausea, no nightmare ^^

Resignation from Marcus Evans

2009-08-12T13:01:00.005+08:00

It has been a month since my last day in Marcus Evans, the first company I wished to start my career. I like the company for its background and culture. After accepted the offer from Marcus Evans, I stopped hunting jobs from Jobstreet and declined offers from other prospective employers. I was so glad to be a part of Marcus Evans and wished to contribute my skills and efforts to the company.

I had gone through the first interview which I think is the most difficult meeting ever, I thought I had screwed up the interview because I did not answer most of the questions correctly. The questions were designed to test your knowledge about the business world (maybe common knowledge). I was really excited when I was called for second interview and being offered a training session in the company.

The training programe was great because everything was new to me, I felt really excited throughout the whole week. I did doubted about my decision as I know the position as marketing research executive does not match to my character. However, I convinced myself that what I was feeling was first job anxiety, culture shock etc.

My first few days were fine in the office, everyone was so nice and kind, the tasks were easy and sometimes excited. I spoke with different people from Singapore, Malaysia, Thailand, China, HongKong, Germany, Indonesia and Philippines. Believe me, their phone ethics are different from one to another, even to countries. After a week time in Marcus Evans, my so called "new job anxiety" was getting serious. I hated to share with my friends for what I was doing in the company, don't get me wrong, I am very proud to be a part of the company, but I just did not want to share. I hated to recall what I did in office and describe my feeling everyday.

It was like burning inside your body, you wanted to get rid from that but you know you couldn't escape. I struggled for weeks and tried hard to convince myself in positive ways. I failed... Day by day, I kept thinking my dreams and compared the pros and cons. Finally, I knew what I want and what i should do, though not precise.

I tendered my resignation letter to my team leader on the first week of July. She responded to my resignation peacefully. I feel really guilty and sorry to her but I had no choice, i need to persue my dreams. I told my decision to my friends... I still remember her expression, seeking for confirmation on what I had told her.

"Really?" she repeated the word a few times.

"Yes." I answered her.

She looked shock and sad with wet eyes.

Sorry dear... I couldn't be with you for another few months...

Few days later, my last day was confirmed. As usual, we had a farewell lunch on my last day. Friday, the off time is at 5pm. I gave hugs to my beloved colleagues and said goodbye....

Surprisingly, our cute CJ7 handed me a booklet with a cute clip. There were notes written by my dear colleagues for me. It was so sweet to have this as farewell gift. T_T Love them very much. I did not expect this at all... I was overwhelmed with complicated feelings, sad, happy, touched...

Thanks everyone, I appreciate and like the booklet very very much ^^

Before leaving the office, our marketing director was still in his place. I felt awkward after sending appreciation email to him for the opportunity in Marcus Evans. We were in the same office and I wished I could disappear immediately after sending the email, but I forgot my file in the drawer which was located at the other end of our office.... >.<>

Finally, I made myself to go to his place and said thank you in person. Our conversation went well and he is a cheerful person. Done... I left without any awkward feelings but glad to have this experience. Thank you Mr Neil Thai and all my colleagues in Marcus Evans, wish all the best to you and to the company.

A day out with Oren

2009-08-06T23:48:00.005+08:00

This was how he found me >.<>

It should be "棋" not "琪"！

Hehe, anyway, i think this was quite funny. ^^

We again met in Mid Valley this year in zen cafe (Last year was in Carl's Junior, Mid Valley) after puchased "The Proposal" movie tickets. zen cafe, an extension from the renowned casual dining cafe Secret Recipe. Oren ordered a glass of fresh watermelon juice and spicy spaghetti meatballs, while I ordered a cup of cappucino and chicken steak.

spicy spaghetti meatballs

chicken steak

My chicken steak tasted as good as it looks ^^ The chicken was soft and juicy, it tasted really great with mozzarella cheese and chicken ham as topping. It totally wipped off the presence of Secret Recipe chicken lasagna in my mind since I had made my decision to go to zen cafe. No regrets, it tasted as good as my first great chicken lasagna in Secret Recipe^^ (I think the spaghetti was nice too, Oren did not complaint about it. Hehe...)

While waiting for the right time to enter cinema, again, we visited perfume counters in Jusco. Why do I say "again"? Because.... we did the same thing last year after our lunch, the only difference was - we did not watch movie (Oren wanted and planned to watch Wall-E, but I had promised to my dear for the movie, so... But now, I know, it is very expensive to watch latest movie in Taiwan, so I made up my mind to watch movie with Oren when he came back to Malaysia ^^. No matter what...)

This year, he introduced me Bvlgari. I do not know about perfume, but he showed me some perfume that can be easily distinguished. Hugo or Boss = very mature and strong, Bvlgari = Erm... not bad... acceptable, many more.... Some smell feminine, green tea, fruits, medicated oil (sorry... this was the first impression) For me, I think I fell for DKNY peach, it smells really sweet ^^

Well, we did not buy any perfume at the end, but I bought home Clinique travel pack at only RM40. Though, that was not the type I wanted, I was happy to grab one for my mother. After payment, we rushed for our movie in Cinema 2.

There was a little episode happened in the cinema. We thought we were too late to enter the hall, but the screen was playing advertisement and traillers while we had entered the hall. There were still many people watching movie on Thursday.. Here our little story began...

First, we entered the wrong row claiming for the wrong seats... (I know, it was quite embrassing... ^^;;) Second, we proceeded to the right row and claimed for our seats which were taken by two men, but we were told we entered the wrong cinema.... (OMG... that was really bad!!!) But, I was very sure we entered the right cinema! After making confirmation with other audiences sitting around us... Those were our seats!

Finally we claimed our seats and the two men... or three... apologised politely and asked for the direction to the right cinema. Well, it was quite awkward, but I am okay with it. Take it easy, men make mistakes.

The movie was great and romantic ^^. I love to watch romantic movies, but my dear always fond of watching action or huge production fiction movies. I know he definitely will accompany me to watch such movies, but I normally wouldn't ask... Hehe... I'm a strange person.

After movie, Oren treated me (sounds like little kid) ice cream at Baskin Robbins. I had no idea did I try its ice cream before, i assumed this was my first time. The result was... OMG... TOO SWEET!!!!!!! I like the ice cream but it was too sweet for me. Next time, I wouldn't ask for any chocolate topping, I can't take it!!! Anyway, thanks to Oren.

It was 5pm something. Time to go... It was sad to say bye bye to old friends when you do not know when will be your next meeting. However, I am really glad we met again this year which was two years earlier than what we predicted last year. Thanks to Air Asia, may be we will meet in Taiwan next time.

So bad, we did not take picture together this year >.< My fault... Talked too much til forgot le... Hehe...

To my dear friend, all the best in your studies ya. Hope to see you soon ^^

3rd morning in Krabi, 27 July 2009

2009-08-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

I did not sleep well on our last night in Krabi.
I felt cold and nausea in bed...
A H1N1? Come on...
Flu? No way, I need to go to Bangkok somemore!!!!
/floor

My handphone alarm rang at 9am, my cousin was using bath room... I closed my eyes and continued my dreams....
Suddenly, everything shut down...
The light, the air-cond...
What? Black out....
Unbelievable....
/omg

I had stomachache and feeling like vomitting....
/blur
I was not good!
I felt bad!!!!
What a horrible morning...
Feeling sick, black out somemore....
I showered with cold water... pity...
/no

Then, I heard my cousin said she was not feeling well, my cousin brothers, cousin sister and aunt were feeling sick, vomitted, having diarrhea...
/omg
We all sick! Food poisoned!

I had no appetite at all for my breakfast...
We waited teksi at the lobby, all looking sick >.<
No mood...
No mood to take photos....
No mood to chit chat.... So bad!!!!!!!!
The Thai-Chinese-Indo dinner, it was all its fault
/no

However, we were getting better while waiting for the flight in Airport.
Due to the Double A seminar at Chachoengsao, I needed to fly to Bangkok alone.
After checking in to the waiting hall, I was all alone in the domestic flight waiting lounge, while my family was at the next door - International flight...
/omg Sad... I felt even sad when they were boarding the plane to Kuala Lumpur... /floor

Bye bye my dear family...
Thank you very much for the trip...
I had a wonderful time in Krabi with all of you.
I appreciate everything you have given to me.
Thank you
/please

(My family was getting better that night, minor food poisoned...)

Second Day in Krabi, 26th July 2009

2009-08-05T15:34:00.006+08:00

We joined a tour to visit some of the most attractive islands in Krabi on Sunday. They picked us up at 8.30am after our breakfast. Thank god, luckily it was 9.30am Malaysia time, if not, it would be definitely a difficult task for me to wake up.

Our boat started off at about 9.30am to an island i believe was Lohsamah Bay for snorkeling. Snorkeling... Wow.. I had never tried this before. Luckily I had a tour guide guiding me for the whole snorkeling session. I was thrilled by the wonderful underwater life. The fishes, tiny nemo, sea urchins, corals etc were amazing! (I enjoyed swimming with colourful fishes, they belong to the ocean.... not in an aquarium.... Fishes have no life in aquarium.... This is where they belong to....) This was my first time snorkeling, drank some sea water accidentally and choked a few times. The life jacket was not in good condition, made my first snorkeling experience a little imperfect. I wished I could swim like others.

After 30 minutes snorkeling, we left to our second destination of the day. First, we came to "The Beach" filming destination. It really is a beautiful island with clear and clean water, I really don't know how to decribe the beauty of the scene.. It was quiet, peaceful, clean, beautiful...

Next, we went to Maya Beach. Oooh, I love the beach here! The beach is surrounded by giant rocks and hills, make it so different from other beaches. I love this!!!!!

We had Thai Lunch at Phi-Phi Island, finally I tasted Thailand's White Tom Yum (Is it Tom Yum Gung?). The taste was not bad, but the two foreigners sat on the same table with us were not very happy (Maybe got cheated by the Tom Yum soup. they thought it was clear soup).

Next, we proceeded to our final destination -- The Bamboo Island. I heard that the underwater life at Bamboo Island is superb. I did not join them for snorkeling because we need to swim quite far from the coast to the snorkeling spot. Thus, I just playing around the Island, chasing waves, photo shooting etc.

Our tuor ended at about 4pm. We were tired and exhausted, but we were happy to visit those beautiful islands.

^^ Before going for dinner, we went for massage. This was my first time having real massage sevice -- Thai massage. OMG... It was sooooooooo nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love massage....

We had dinner at a Thai-Chinese-Indo Restaurant (if I'm not mistaken), the food was.... Okay lar... But, sad to say, we did not had wonderful, delicious, original Thai food in Krabi....

Tired.
We went back to hotel after shopping at the night market. My family went on bed quite early that night. I spent about an hour time to draf and write my best wishes on post cards before going on bed.

I did not sleep well that night. Feeling cold all the time and nausea...

First day in Krabi, 25th July 2009

2009-08-04T16:00:00.011+08:00

Finally, I went to Krabi with my extended family as planned few months ago. Thanks to my aunt and cousins taking care of me all the time ^^

It was my first time visiting to Thailand, the country I know for its beautiful islands and beaches, smiling faces and hospitality, rice and elephants etc. Many friends of mine do not know where is Krabi. Well, it is a town on the west coast of Southern Thailand. I think Krabi is famous with the Phi Phi islands, where some of the islands are considered as one of the most naturally beautiful islands in the world and chosen as filming destination such as "James Bond" and "The Beach" starred by Leonardo DiCaprio.

We reached to Krabi airport around 1pm, the airport is small and quite like the one in Langkawi, but I think Langkawi airport is more interesting than Krabi Airport with its shopping outlets and fancy resturants. It was my first time travelling out of Malaysia with flight, I felt excited even the queue was quite long at the passport control stations.

We were glad that the teksi driver was already there to pick us up. He led the way to his teksi at the car park near to airport entrance. We were so surprise to see the teksi in a cosy and spacious van ^^ The van was greater than those we took / drove in Langkawi.

We reached to Ao Nang Paradise Resort Hotel after 15 minutes ride in the cosy teksi. While my family was checking in to the hotel, Kevin accompanied me to the nearest telecommunication outlet to buy DTac Happy Sim card. I shut off my Digi to shun calls and text messages from Malaysia during my Thailand trip because it is cheaper and convenient for both parties for making international calls and sms with local number. (DTac - Digi = 5 Baht/sms (RM0.60/sms) ; Digi - DTac = RM0.50/sms; Digi roaming - Digi Malaysia = RM2/sms)

I thought the resort was like those I visited before, however, I should have trusted and reminded myself about my cousin's profession in hotel industry. Although it looked simple and ordinary at the front desk, the room surprised me alot. I stayed with my elder cousin sister in one of the Deluxe Premium room which was facing Ao Nang Mountain. I was giving "Wow" look on my face when I first visited to our rooms.

After loading our luggages in the hotel, we walked around the town and tried some local cuisine such as Thai Pan cake, grill fish and chicken etc. After 10 minutes walk from the resort hotel, we came to Ao Nang beach. There were alomist 20 massage stalls beside the beach, and most of them are full of customers. My aunt and my cousin sisters went for body massage, while my cousin brothers chose to stroll on the beach.

We found a little bridge / hill way to other side of the beach which was separated by Ao Nang Mountain. Even we were told there were 400 steps to get to the destination, we tried to make it because we were quite curious about the other side of the beach. (Maybe because we have nothing to do... >.<)

Well, we made it. The beach view had no differences as where we were at the other side, but the area we were standing was belong to a resort. The beach here was totally different where outsiders are not allowed to enter the resort and to use the facilities. With a little disappointment, we returned to the busy Ao Nang Beach after shooting some photos.

While waiting the ladies at the massage stall, we ended up sitting at the beach and enjoy the foot massage service ^^ Nice! But it would be better if she could press harder!!!!

After foot massage session, it was the ebb. We saw some Thai were squatting on the beach with buckets and spoons, they were catching hermit crabs. We were suppose not to contact with water after foot massage, but all of us ignored and played like kids. Five of us have total ages about 120 caught hermit crabs and gathered them in a small "pond" just for FUN and photo shootings. I love the moment as we seldom can see so many lively hermit crabs moving on the beach surface. They have nice shells and pretty big! No wonder the villagers like to eat them.... T_T

Besides hermit crabs, my cousin and I caught some lovely pictures too. Beach view during dusk is the best ^^ These are my cousin's best shots.

While this is mine ^^ Nice?

It was dinner time, our stomaches were "drumming". After showerd, we went to a Thai seafood restaurant. I tasted the most delicious Oyster I had never tasted before in that restaurant. Yummy! But the chilli was killing me!!!! I choked and jumped on the chair for few minutes. Even coconut juice also helpless to ease my burning tongue!!!!!!!

I was planning to but some souvenirs or dresses after dinner. OMG, the merchandise was not cheap as we thought or compared to Bangkok and Phuket. Clearly, Krabi is not a shopping paradise! Finally, I bought a pack of elephant magnets, stamps and post cards.

The night was still young when we returned to resort hotel. Kevin and I hang out at a bar near to the resort for cocktails. My god, the bar looked nice at the entrance, but not after sitting in it. We were feeding mosquitoes while enjoying our cocktails.

Finally, we switched to another bar which has a pool table. We spent the night there playing mini games and pool, and it was a great night ^^ When i returned to my room, it was about 3am Malaysia time. I missed my bed and fell asleep pretty fast...

死讯

2009-07-22T01:34:00.004+08:00

弟弟告诉我说，他那患有血癌的朋友在今天早上去世了。

我没见过这男孩，但看过他和弟弟出游的照片。那时候的他看起来很健康，和普通的男生一样。个子虽然不高，但样子长得温顺还蛮帅气的。

弟弟曾经告诉我说，他们全班得知他患上血癌后也感到非常难过。校方和社会人士也很热心地筹款帮助这位男生。前几个月听说他动了手术，心想接受了骨髓移植应该没事了。没想到接下来的消息会是他的死讯。虽然不认识他，可是会有难过的感觉。

那男孩的家就在学校的前面，弟弟说他们发现他家在十二点左右开始搭帐篷。大家都在怀疑是不是他出了什么事了。男孩的几个好朋友见状也溜出去摇了通电话到男孩的家，几个人不久后也回到班上。当中有人哭了~

班上的同学立即鸦雀无声。沉默，难过，错愕~

老师应该也感受到当时的伤感，没什么教书。

大家都没心情上课了。

血癌。让我记起了小学二年级时的一个同班同学。那男生和我同座，时常都戴着顶灰色的帽子。当时的我还小，不知什么是血癌，只知道他生病了，所以可以戴着帽子来上学。知道他生病所以我不会刻意去欺负他，也不会作弄他~ 后来上了三年级，再也没见到那男生了。当时的我也没想那么多，我想应该是转校了吧。人长大以后，越来越懂得那是怎么一回事，偶尔都会想起这位同学。他还健在吗？我不知道~

外公是我平生接收的第一个死讯。

那是我小学二年级的时候。那天早上一打开眼睛就看见妈妈在哭泣：“外公走了！”

我还小，没特别的感觉。只是看到妈妈哭会觉得难过。

中三，开斋节的第二天。我躺在客厅的沙发上看漫画，妈妈在厨房里忙着。后来妈妈接到了电话，是爸爸打来的。忘记了妈妈的对话，但是我是被妈妈惊讶的声音吸引过去。听起来好像发生了什么大事。

“你婆婆过世了。”

痛。

呼吸困难。

怎么可能？昨天还好好的，怎么可能走了？

可是，婆婆她的地走了。没和我道别就走了~

高三，有一天和妈妈逛街接到了（前）男友的电话。

“喂” 他的声音变沙哑了。

停顿了一下：“我妈走了~”

……

我的心掉了下来，也不知道该说什么好。

挂了电话以后，眼泪也流出眼眶了。

大一第二学期，某个星期六。我和美苑办完宿舍的事务准备回家，在那小小的房间里摇了通电话给父亲。向父亲报告完我的事以后，父亲接着说：“外婆过世了啊～”

“什么？”我叫了一声笑说：“你讲笑的事吗？”其实我心里知道那不是笑话，我也不知道那句话为什么会脱口而出。父亲不说话，让我冷静下来。

我意识到了自己那不能接受事实的态度，稍微冷静了些。父亲接着说：“别太难过。外婆都很老了，是时候走了。”

“嗯！”我掉眼泪了，还记得当时隔壁的邻居刚巧过来打招呼，稍微冷静的我也没在他们面前大哭。不是我不难过，而是我比较能接受外婆离开的事实。（有关我外婆的故事）

死讯，从来不会是好消息。

还活着的我们会因为已故的人而难过，但人死不能复生。

让已故的人走好，节哀顺变。

阿弥陀佛～

A day trip at Bukit Cerakah, Shah Alam (Taman Cahaya), 10th May 2009, Sunday

2009-07-20T21:19:00.003+08:00

I think i am adventurous. I like out door activities.

It was my first time visit to Taman Cahaya. Thanks to my dear cousin, brang my brother and me along to this one day trip with your friends ^^

It was a hot day.

We stayed there from 11am til 4.30pm. What a tiring day.

Thanks to the trip, I sweated alot!!!! Used alot of energy too... Cycling under the hot sun... God...

But, i still enjoy it ^^

There is an animal park in Taman Cahaya, I saw a hamster giving birth. OMG.... It was disgusting, but I am glad that I had the chance to witness this. ^^

I like activities like this ^^

Langkawi Trip, 12 - 14 May 2009

2009-07-20T17:23:00.011+08:00

After a week of my last paper in May, I went to Pulau Langkawi with my dear friends, secondary friends, friends' friends... I think about 30 of us.

I thought it would be a M size trip consisted of 10 - 15 people, it surprised me when we met the other 15 boys and girls in the airport. I know only people from our gang, about 1/3 of the group.

How was the trip?

Well, I would say it was good to hang out with your dear friends and crazy with some of your old friends. However, i wish we could have more fun besides drinking beers and site seeing.

Overall, it was great ^^

Hopefully we will go to Pulau Langkawi next time in a smaller group. Please, drink beer as plain water and drink liquor during our happy hour. What a waste we drank only beer in Pulau Langkawi >.<

Haha...

For te first time, I brought home a Chivas as present for my cousin.

Shame to say that Chivas was the first liquor I tasted. Its taste like YoMeiShu when mixing with Pepsi or Coke, but i like it ^^

I made this video ^^ Love it.

缘分，走远了

2009-07-20T01:16:00.005+08:00

和朋友在一起吃喝玩乐是件很快乐的事。

我喜欢偶尔和朋友逛街，吃饭和聚会。

也许最近太得空了，会因为朋友而沮丧。

最后一次和朋友一起逛街是什么时候了？

我不记得了。

是一年前吗？三个人一起到Pavillion办年货的那一次吗？

虽然我们仍然会出来一起吃饭小聚一番，可是有时会觉得空虚。

我不想再找话题了。

我甚至不想再说话了。

“宝，为什么那么静的？”

我很想说，我不想说话，我只想听你们说话就好了。

我溶不入你们的话题。

你们知道的，我不知道。

我将我知道的与大家分享，似乎没人有兴趣知道。

最后，你会觉得你好像是对着空气说话。

我已经不懂得如何挑话题说话了。

我觉得自己离她们好远好远。

她们的生活点滴，我已经没办法掌握了。

她说，很多事是人为的。

人与人的距离是人为的。

是，的确如此。

或许我不够努力，我没好好地修补这段距离。

我说缘来缘去，随缘吧！朋友的离去是很正常的。

她认为我比她还要悲观。

不是悲观。

而是如你们所说的，看开了。

想要修补这段距离不是我一个人能完成的事。

就像谈恋爱那样，需要双方的努力和配合。

我很想知道更多，很想溶入你们的生活里。

可是往往很多时候，我是知道结果的那个人，不是过程中的那个人。

很多事情，我不再是分享的对象，我也不再是被依靠的对象。

当问题发生的时候，第一想起的名单里不包括我，那我就成了外人了。

根本不需要我来关心。

我们坚持说咱门是好朋友，很要好的朋友。

是的，我还有一班很要好的朋友。

不离不弃，大日子的时候一定会在一起。

不过，那可能只是一种慰籍心灵的话。

有一天，一个朋友唠叨我说：“你可以主动一点吗?"

那是因为我很久没关心和没联络她了。

听了那一番话，我顿时觉得很窝心和感动。

原来还有朋友需要我的关心。

不知从什么时候开始，我不敢放太多感情。

越在乎，越难过。

所以，我选择成为过客。

当离开公司的那一天收到了同事们的留言小本，我哭了。

虽然那不代表些什么。

即使那只是个很普通的社交功夫。

都没关系~

我只在乎那一刻的窝心和感动。

原来还有人会在乎自己。

有一天，想找个女伴一起去逛街，后来发现我没这个对象。

或许是因为时机的不当，也可能是因为和我逛街比较辛苦（搭巴士是件很累的事）的原因。

没人关心这个建议;我也不施加压力取消了。

最近的新衣裳是从网店和自己一个人逛街时买的。

“那件衣服我帮你选的哦！”

“我给意见的列~”

这是她们的对话。

我知道不是我被排挤了，而是因为时机的不当。

她们逛街的那一天，往往是我和男友约会的那一天。

千万不要认为我因为没和他们一起去逛街这小事而小气和沮丧，这不是全部。

我难过的是，我好像要将自己的心封锁起来，离开。

敞开心房的范围变得更小了……

缘分，走远了。

是时候放开了……。

Courage

2009-07-15T16:20:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling weak.

I need courage to be strong.

I need to get rid off the fear to face new challenges in my life.

I can't stop where I am standing now.

Life goes on, we move on.

I can't stop.

Even I am scared.

I need to ride above these...

To be confident, tough and mature...

Beat it (Chinese Version)

2009-07-15T01:33:00.003+08:00

Another forwarded clip.

Omg, this is funny!!!!

BritainsGotTalent XXX - Monkey Puppet Sing Micheal Jackson

2009-07-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

This was an video forwarded by my friend.

The puppet is so cute ^^

Fail to plan, plan to fail

2009-07-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

I had plans when I was in form 3. I knew what course I wanted and I know I am not the person in science and professional industry such as doctor, lawyer, teacher, financial analyst etc. I know i am belong to the business world. I knew I need to continue my tertiary studies in local universities because those are the institutes we afford to go.

I am glad that I made it, I worked out my plans and got myself into one of the universities that I eagerly wanted. The journey was not easy, but I had never doubted my decisions and my choices. Direction, is always the purpose to remind you where you should go.

However, I felt lost in university.

I did not have my plans after university.

I knew I will be in working class as anybody else, but I did not know what exactly I want to be.

I did not know where I want to go, unlike choosing which university you want to enter.

I broke down several times.

I tried to figure out in different ways.

Yet, there was no answer.

I planned to start my job hunting in July or August, having two to three months time to figure out what I want to be. However, I started my plan in late May when my friends has been working hard to find a job after our degree paper. I felt panic and stressed when everyone is saying the economic is bad, it is difficult to find a job, and there are bills to pay.

I started it without knowing what exactly I wanted.

I know it is a normal situation for fresh graduates. It is normal to feel uncertain, to feel lost.

But, it is not easy and comfortable to get through everyday without a plan in my head.

I made decisions with my instinct, based on my belief.

I think I did not try hard enough to compare the alternatives objectively.

I think all i was lacking during my decision making was a direction, a goal.

I returned to the starting point and is doing the same hunting task.

I have no regrets making an inappropriate decision a month ago.

There was no time wasted.

I learnt from mistake.

I think I found my answer. Not precise, but I have a direction.

There is a say goes: "If you failed to plan, you plan to fail."

I agree with the statement, but I would not say this is the result for my inappropriate decision. Well, it could be if you insist. For me, it is a process for planning. I am glad to experience it. It helped me shape the so-called direction.

I hope it is true, and I am not wrong this time.

Love between Alex and Izzie

2009-06-28T18:59:00.002+08:00

I found this from YouTube.

Nice Song ^^ Good job ^^